Babam \u00f6l\u00fcnce \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim \u00fcvey annemle bana oturdu\u011fumuz ev ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir bakkal d\u00fckkan\u0131 miras olarak kald\u0131. Ancak d\u00fckkan uzun zamand\u0131r kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Babam son senelerinde yatalak oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bakkal\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem s\u00fcrekli bakkal\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7\u0131p i\u015fletmeye devam etmemi, onun babam\u0131n emaneti oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyip durdu. Babam\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlarda bile do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn i\u015f yapmayan d\u00fckkan i\u00e7in,<\/p>\n
\u201cO bakkal bize ata baba yadigar\u0131d\u0131r, nas\u0131l kapat\u0131r\u0131z o\u011flum?\u201d diyerek beni ikna etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 uzun zaman\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00d6zel sekt\u00f6rde iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc maa\u015fl\u0131 bir i\u015fim ve sigortam oldu\u011fu halde annemin \u0131srarlar\u0131na dayanamay\u0131p i\u015fimi b\u0131rakt\u0131m ve bakkal\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7t\u0131m. Uzun zaman kapal\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in d\u00fckkan bak\u0131ms\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hem i\u00e7eriyi yenilemek hem de yeni mallar koymak gerekiyordu. Ama bunun i\u00e7in de para gerekliydi.<\/p>\n
Elimdekilerden hari\u00e7 annemin iki bilezi\u011fini bozdurdum. \u00dczerine de bankadan kredi \u00e7ekmek istedim, ama alamad\u0131m. O zaman bir arkada\u015f\u0131m vas\u0131tas\u0131 ile tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m, Abuzer ad\u0131nda bir tefeciden bor\u00e7 para istedim. Abuzer’in ger\u00e7ek i\u015fi araba galericili\u011fiydi. Paray\u0131 dolar \u00fczerinden verece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n
\u201cBen sadece Dolar’la para veririm, i\u015fine gelirse!\u201d demi\u015fti. Anneme konuyu a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kabul etti, ben de Abuzer’e gidip senet kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda paray\u0131 ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
D\u00fckkan\u0131n i\u00e7ini yeniledim, yeni mallar koydum. Annem de babam\u0131n zaman\u0131nda oldu\u011fu gibi bana yard\u0131m ediyor, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Sat\u0131\u015flar ilk zamanlar idare ediyorsa da sonradan iyi gitmemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Sat\u0131\u015flar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu veresiyeydi. Veresiye defteri iyice \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti ama tahsilat \u00e7ok azd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ayn\u0131 zamanda etraf\u0131m\u0131z ucuzluk marketleri ile dolmu\u015ftu ve insanlar oralardan paras\u0131 yoksa bile kredi kart\u0131 ile al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f yap\u0131yordu. Benim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bakkal\u0131ma u\u011frayan kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Abuzer’in ilk birka\u00e7 taksitini \u00f6deyebilmi\u015ftim sadece.<\/p>\n
Sat\u0131\u015flar\u0131n iyi gitmemesinin \u00fczerine kriz nedeniyle dolar da \u00e7ok y\u00fckselince iflah\u0131m kesilmi\u015fti. Eski Do\u011fan marka arabam\u0131 satt\u0131m, ama o bile kurtarmad\u0131 beni. Annem de elinden geldi\u011fi kadar bana destek olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu, ama hi\u00e7biri i\u015fe yaram\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Bor\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00f6deyemez hale gelince Abuzer’in tehditleri ba\u015flad\u0131. Beni devaml\u0131 aray\u0131p paras\u0131n\u0131 istiyor, k\u00fcf\u00fcr ediyordu. Annem de bu durumdan korkuyordu do\u011fal olarak, onunla konu\u015farak anla\u015fmam\u0131 istiyordu. Ben de ona adam\u0131n anla\u015fmaya yana\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, paras\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
\u201cBeraber gidelim o\u011flum. Ben konu\u015fur anlat\u0131r\u0131m derdimizi. Kad\u0131n oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in bana bir \u015fey diyemez. Hem tatl\u0131 dil y\u0131lan\u0131 deli\u011finden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r. Ucunda \u00f6l\u00fcm yok ya!\u201d diyordu s\u00fcrekli.<\/p>\n
Ben de sonunda, \u201cTamam!\u201d dedim ve bir ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc beraber tefecinin yolunu tuttuk\u2026 Abuzer beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce,<\/p>\n
\u201cParay\u0131 m\u0131 getirdin?\u201d dedi sert bir sesle. Benden \u00f6nce annem at\u0131l\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cYok Abuzer Bey, konu\u015fmaya geldik!\u201d dedi. Bunun Abuzer i\u00e7in bir anlam ifade edece\u011fini sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 annem, ama yan\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe konu\u015facaks\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d dedi masas\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 kalkmadan. Annem gene benden \u00f6nce davran\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen aya\u011f\u0131na gelen misafire b\u00f6yle mi davran\u0131yon?\u201d dedi\u011finde aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Parlak kuma\u015fl\u0131 pantolonunu \u00e7ekip kirli, sar\u0131 di\u015flerini g\u00f6stererek g\u00fcld\u00fc ve<\/p>\n
\u201cKim bu, anan m\u0131?\u201d diye sordu. Annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cAnas\u0131y\u0131m evet, seninle konu\u015fmaya geldik!\u201d dedi yine.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130yi iyi, \u015f\u00f6yle ge\u00e7in, konu\u015fal\u0131m bakal\u0131m, ne konu\u015facaksak?\u201d dedi ve eliyle arka taraftaki bir yeri g\u00f6sterdi. Biz oraya ge\u00e7erken galerinin cam kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kilitledi\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Anneme uyup gelmekle hata etti\u011fimi o zaman anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnne gel gidelim, bu herifle konu\u015fulmaz!\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m kula\u011f\u0131na. Annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cNe diye gidelim o\u011flum, daha yeni geldik, dur hele!\u201d dedi kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k olarak.<\/p>\n
Annem konu\u015farak i\u015fi \u00e7\u00f6zebilece\u011fimizi san\u0131yordu halen. Abuzer’i yeterince tan\u0131m\u0131yordu. Ge\u00e7ti\u011fimiz yer \u00f6nden paravanla ayr\u0131lan oda gibi bir yerdi. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu buras\u0131\u2026 \u0130\u00e7eride bizden ba\u015fka Abuzer’in \u00fc\u00e7 adam\u0131 daha vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Kal\u0131n bir sigaray\u0131 ortalar\u0131nda dola\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorlard\u0131, i\u00e7tiklerinin esrar oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de tekin tipler de\u011fildi. Bor\u00e7 almaya geldi\u011fim zaman da g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm onlar\u0131. Hapse girip \u00e7\u0131kan sab\u0131kal\u0131 u\u011fursuz tiplerdi. \u0130\u00e7lerinde en b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcneni Vakkas’d\u0131. Vakkas bana,<\/p>\n
\u201cHo\u015f geldin garda\u015f!\u201d derken di\u011fer ikisinin g\u00f6z\u00fc annemin \u00fczerindeydi. Anneme yine,<\/p>\n
\u201cGidelim, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za i\u015f a\u00e7acaklar!\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m, ama annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cDur hele o\u011flum Allah Allah, konu\u015fal\u0131m \u00f6nce!\u201d diyerek beni tersledi.<\/p>\n
Adamlardan o da \u00e7ok rahats\u0131z olmu\u015ftu, ama bir \u015fey diyecek hali yoktu. Benden \u00e7ok o gelmek istemi\u015fti. Abuzer yan\u0131m\u0131za gelince annem hemen konuyu a\u00e7t\u0131. Abuzer alayc\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flarla bir bana bir anneme bak\u0131p duruyor ama annemin konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 dinlemiyordu. Ancak annem konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 bitirince,<\/p>\n
\u201cHan\u0131m b\u0131rak \u015fimdi bu s\u00fcsl\u00fc laflar\u0131\u2026 K\u0131sacas\u0131 ben param\u0131 istiyorum!\u201d diye sert bir kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi.<\/p>\n
\u201cYeniden d\u00fczenle borcumuzu, \u00f6demeyecek de\u011filiz, ka\u00e7m\u0131yoruz. Ama dolar \u00e7ok y\u00fckseldi, belimizi b\u00fckt\u00fc. \u00d6deyemiyoruz bu \u015fekilde\u2026 Bor\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 T\u00fcrk Liras\u0131na \u00e7evir, \u00f6yle senet yap \u00f6deyelim!”<\/p>\n
“Ben o\u011fluna en ba\u015f\u0131nda sadece dolar veririm dedim, sen de tamam demi\u015fsin, ben de verdim. \u015eimdi kalkm\u0131\u015f benden T\u00fcrk Liras\u0131yla senet istiyorsun, benim aln\u0131mda enayi mi yaz\u0131yor? Hem ben banka m\u0131y\u0131m yeniden d\u00fczenleme yapay\u0131m? Ya bor\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 getirirsiniz, ya da senetleri i\u015fleme koyar\u0131m, neyiniz var neyiniz yok elinizden al\u0131r\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7erdeki ortam gittik\u00e7e elektriklenmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Abuzer bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc,<\/p>\n
“Sen adam de\u011fil misin lan anan\u0131 da al\u0131p gelmi\u015fsin buraya pezevenk!\u201d deyince,<\/p>\n
\u201cD\u00fczg\u00fcn konu\u015f!\u201d dedim \u00f6fkeyle. Ancak Abuzer d\u00fczg\u00fcn konu\u015facak bir tip de\u011fildi. Annem de,<\/p>\n
\u201cAbuzer Bey sen nas\u0131l konu\u015fuyorsun?\u201d deyince,<\/p>\n
\u201cSenden mi \u00f6\u011frenecem ben nas\u0131l konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131?\u201d dedi yan\u0131t olarak. Sonra da, \u201cBu paray\u0131 sike sike \u00f6deyeceksiniz!\u201d deyince, annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen nas\u0131l konu\u015fuyon?\u201d dedi ba\u011f\u0131rarak\u2026 Abuzer kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kad\u0131n olmu\u015f, erkek olmu\u015f fark etmeksizin konu\u015fan biriydi. Annemin ba\u011f\u0131rmas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k,<\/p>\n
\u201cBana bak kad\u0131n\u2026 Ya paray\u0131 \u00f6dersiniz ya da ben ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc almas\u0131n\u0131 bilirim!\u201d dedi sert\u00e7e\u2026 Abuzer’in bu s\u00f6zleri \u00fczerine annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen tefecilik yap\u0131yorsun, seni polise s\u00f6yliycem!\u201d demez mi? Bir anda k\u0131yamet koptu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer anneme k\u00fcfretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bunun \u00fczerine Abuzer’in \u00fczerine y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm ama araya adamlar\u0131 girdi. O kadar \u00f6fkelenmi\u015ftim ki orada bizden hari\u00e7 \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi oldu\u011funu unutmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n
Abuzer’in adamlar\u0131 beni tutarak vurmaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u00dc\u00e7 ki\u015fi olduklar\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fcc\u00fcm yetmiyordu. Abuzer de annemi kolundan ve a\u011fz\u0131ndan tutmu\u015f ba\u011f\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131 hareket etmesini \u00f6nl\u00fcyordu. Annem elinde ku\u015f gibi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yordu. Beni epey h\u0131rpalad\u0131lar. A\u011fz\u0131m y\u00fcz\u00fcm kan i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen laftan anlam\u0131yorsun, sana bir ders verelim de akl\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelsin!\u201d dedi anneme\u2026 Arkas\u0131nda kalan bir kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7arak annemi i\u00e7eri s\u00fcr\u00fcklerken adamlar\u0131 da beni tutup oraya g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (1), resim \u21162
\nBuras\u0131 penceresi olmayan dikd\u00f6rtgen \u015feklinde bir odayd\u0131. Uzun duvarlardan birinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde metal bir karyola vard\u0131. Odan\u0131n duvarlar\u0131na arabesk \u015fark\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131 ile p\u00f8rn\u00f8 dergilerden kesilmi\u015f sayfalar yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bir s\u00fcr\u00fc. \u00dczerine gazete ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 serilmi\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir masa ile \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sandalyeden hari\u00e7 ba\u015fka da e\u015fya yoktu.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7erinin bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za gelecekler konusunda beni fena korkuttu. Annem duvardaki p\u00f8rn\u00f8 resimlere bakmamak i\u00e7in g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cAllah belan\u0131 versin hayvan herif, b\u0131rak beni, b\u0131rak kolumu, b\u0131rak\u0131n bizi, o\u011flumu b\u0131rak\u0131n!\u201d diye feryat etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ama kolunu s\u0131k\u0131ca tutmu\u015ftu Abuzer ve annemin g\u00fcc\u00fc ona yetmiyordu. Ancak bo\u015ftaki sol eliyle Abuzer’in surat\u0131na tokat atmaya muvaffak oldu. Ama bunun kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 surat\u0131na yedi\u011fi tokatla yumruk aras\u0131 bir darbe oldu. Annem sars\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, Abuzer iri yar\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir adamd\u0131 ve kodumu oturtan tipteydi. Adamlar\u0131na,<\/p>\n
\u201cBa\u011flay\u0131n \u015fu herifi\u2026!\u201d dedi sandalyeyi g\u00f6stererek. Adamlar\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki metal kahvehane sandalyesine oturttular zorla ve nerden bulduklar\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fim bir plastik c\u0131rt kelep\u00e7e ile ellerimi arkadan ba\u011flad\u0131lar. Ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 da ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde kelep\u00e7elerle sandalyenin ayaklar\u0131na ba\u011flad\u0131ktan sonra a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 da koli band\u0131 ile bantlad\u0131lar.<\/p>\n
Abuzer bunlar olurken annemi tutmaya devam ediyordu. Annem s\u00fcrekli kurtulmak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yor, a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Bense olacaklar\u0131 tahmin ediyordum. \u00d6fke ve utan\u00e7la ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011fdim. Abuzer’in benim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde anneme fena \u015feyler yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Zavall\u0131 annem\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer ba\u015f\u0131yla i\u015faret yap\u0131nca Vakkas belinden bir silah \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131ma dayad\u0131. Silah\u0131 g\u00f6ren annem kire\u00e7 gibi oldu. Abuzer’in elinden kurtulup bana sar\u0131ld\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ca ve<\/p>\n
\u201cYapmay\u0131n, vurmay\u0131n o\u011flumu!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cBak han\u0131m, o\u011flunun \u00f6lmesini istemiyorsan her dedi\u011fimi yapacaks\u0131n!\u201d dedi \u00f6fkeyle ve yeniden annemi kolundan tutup kendine \u00e7ekti. Annem korkudan h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Abuzer s\u00f6zlerini tekrarlay\u0131nca, annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cTamam yap\u0131cam, ne olur yap\u0131cam, b\u0131rak\u0131n o\u011flumu, b\u0131rak\u0131n!\u201d dedi g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda. Abuzer bunun \u00fczerine Vakkas’a tekrar i\u015faret yapt\u0131 ve o da silah\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan \u00e7ekti. Anneme,<\/p>\n
\u201cBu ak\u015fam bizi memnun edeceksin, yoksa o\u011flunu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fcz!\u201d dedi\u011finde, annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cNe demek istiyorsun?\u201d dedi titreyen sesiyle.<\/p>\n
\u201cBu ak\u015fam seni sikicez, itiraz edersen o\u011flun \u00f6l\u00fcr!\u201d dedi\u011finde annem \u00f6nce \u015foka u\u011frad\u0131, sonra da surat\u0131na vurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ama di\u011fer iki adam\u0131, Halim ve Remzi engel olup annemin kollar\u0131n\u0131 tuttular. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cKarar senin!\u201d dedi sakin bir sesle\u2026 \u201cYa o\u011flunun can\u0131, ya benim dediklerim\u2026\u201d Bu arada ben de sandalyede umutsuzca k\u0131p\u0131rdan\u0131p kurtulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131nca Vakkas tekrar ba\u015f\u0131ma silah dayad\u0131. Annem silah\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce,<\/p>\n
\u201cTamam, yap\u0131cam, b\u0131rak\u0131n o\u011flumu, yap\u0131cam!\u201d dedi korkuyla\u2026<\/p>\n
Salya s\u00fcm\u00fck a\u011flamaya devam ediyordu. Dudaklar\u0131 istemsizce titriyordu. \u015eimdi annem d\u00f6rt adam\u0131n ortas\u0131nda \u00e7aresiz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ben elim kolum ve hatta a\u011fz\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131 halde kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapamadan oturuyordum sandalyede. Abuzer s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cHa \u015f\u00f6yle yola gel!\u201d dedi, kirli ve sar\u0131 di\u015flerini g\u00f6stere g\u00f6stere g\u00fclerken. Ard\u0131ndan Halim ve Remzi’ye, \u201cSiz \u00e7\u0131k\u0131n!\u201d dedi, ikisi de s\u0131r\u0131ta s\u0131r\u0131ta \u00e7\u0131karken ba\u015f\u0131ma silah dayayan Vakkas kald\u0131 i\u00e7erde\u2026<\/p>\n
Adamlar \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131nca Abuzer soyunmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Az sonra \u00fczerinde sadece siyah \u00e7oraplar\u0131 ile kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yara\u011f\u0131 inik halde bile kas\u0131klar\u0131ndan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sark\u0131yordu. Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6te tarafa \u00e7evirmi\u015fti, a\u011flamas\u0131na devam ediyordu. Abuzer yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bana do\u011fru sallay\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cBununla sikecem anan\u0131\u2026 Am\u0131na kodu\u011fumun \u00e7ocu\u011fu, benim param\u0131 vermemek neymi\u015f, bir de gelip posta koymak neymi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn!\u201d dedi. Sonra da anneme,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi yala \u015funu bakay\u0131m!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Annem hareketsiz kal\u0131nca, \u201cYala ulan orospu!\u201d diye daha y\u00fcksek sesle ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 bu sefer.<\/p>\n
Elinde silah olan Vakkas da annemi omuzlar\u0131ndan tutup zorla diz \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcrd\u00fc Abuzer’in \u00f6n\u00fcnde\u2026 Abuzer’in elinde tespih gibi sallad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131 \u015fimdi tam kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem, 40 ya\u015f\u0131nda, a\u011f\u0131r ba\u015fl\u0131, kendi halinde bir kad\u0131nd\u0131r. Beni kendisinin do\u011furmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, annem bebekken \u00f6l\u00fcnce babam\u0131n evlendi\u011fi ikinci kar\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordum. Yani ger\u00e7ekte \u00fcvey annemdi, beni do\u011furmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, s\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc emmemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n
Ama buna ra\u011fmen aram\u0131zda \u00fcvey evlat, \u00fcvey annelik gibi bir durum \u00e7ok nadir olmu\u015ftu. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte birka\u00e7 defa beni \u00e7ok sinirlendirdi\u011fi zamanlarda \u00f6z de\u011fil \u00fcvey annem oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim y\u00fcz\u00fcne. O zaman da,<\/p>\n
\u201cDo\u011fru s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsun yavrum, seni ben do\u011furmad\u0131m!\u201d diyerek ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Onu d\u0131\u015far\u0131da ba\u015f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k, yaz s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131sa kollu giyerken bile g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Beyaz tenli, uzun y\u00fczl\u00fc, hafif kilolu bir kad\u0131nd\u0131. Orta boyluydu. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karken her zaman \u00fczerinde manto veya pardes\u00fc olurdu. Ba\u015f\u0131 hep ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn de \u00f6yleydi. \u00dczerinde lacivert renkli bol bir pardes\u00fc, ba\u015f\u0131nda da omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 ve g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rten siyah beyaz puantiyeli e\u015farb\u0131 vard\u0131. Ayaklar\u0131na eskimi\u015f siyah kolej ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 giymi\u015fti yine.<\/p>\n
Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki Abuzer ise 45 ya\u015f\u0131nda, esmer, uzun boylu ve iri yar\u0131, olduk\u00e7a k\u0131ll\u0131 pos b\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131 bir adamd\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 kar\u0131s\u0131 ve on \u00e7ocu\u011fu oldu\u011funu ondan para almaya geldi\u011fimde s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti, \u00f6v\u00fcnerek anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bunu\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem \u015fimdi Abuzer’in \u00f6n\u00fcnde diz \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f durumdayd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 e\u011fik halde a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Buraya gelmekle b\u00fcy\u00fck hata etmi\u015ftik. Annem s\u00f6zlerimi dinlememi\u015fti hi\u00e7\u2026 \u015eimdi i\u00e7inde oldu\u011fumuz durumdan benim kadar o da su\u00e7luydu. \u00dcstelik beni bakkal\u0131 a\u00e7maya ikna eden, Abuzer’den dolarla bor\u00e7 almama sebep olan da oydu. Asl\u0131nda t\u00fcm bu olanlardan annem sorumluydu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sallamaya devam ediyordu. Bu haliyle uzun ve kal\u0131n bir sosise benzeyen yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin tam a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde sallarken,<\/p>\n
\u201cYalasana lan amc\u0131k!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131tarak. Bu s\u0131rada bana da bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Annem ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fik halde,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flumu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131, onun \u00f6n\u00fcnde yapmay\u0131n bari kitaps\u0131z herifler!\u201d dedi a\u011flamalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n
Ancak Abuzer annemin \u00e7enesini kavray\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131 ve zorla bana bakt\u0131rd\u0131. Annemin g\u00f6zleri a\u011flamaktan \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flun da g\u00f6recek sikimi yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Benim param\u0131 vermemek neymi\u015f g\u00f6rs\u00fcn!\u201d dedi \u00f6fkeyle. Annem utan\u00e7la g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yordu bu s\u0131rada. Bana bakmamak i\u00e7in direniyordu. Abuzer tekrar,<\/p>\n
\u201cYala!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Bir m\u00fcddet tedirgin duran annem daha sonra Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131. \u00d6nce ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyormu\u015f gibi durdu ama sonra sa\u011f eliyle yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tutup kafas\u0131n\u0131 da pipetten su i\u00e7iyormu\u015f gibi \u00e7ekmeye, emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Abuzer annemin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015farb\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinden ok\u015fay\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh, \u00e7ok g\u00fczel, yala benim orospum, yala s\u00fcrt\u00fck\u2026!\u201d demeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00c7aresiz bir halde kar\u015f\u0131mda ya\u015fananlar\u0131 g\u00f6rmemek i\u00e7in ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011fip g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kapad\u0131m, ama kafama silah\u0131n kabzas\u0131 ile sert bir darbe yedim. O ana kadar sessiz duran Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fme ulan, bak da g\u00f6r orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu, anan nas\u0131l sakso \u00e7ekiyor izle!\u201d dedi kahkahayla. Ard\u0131ndan da, \u201cE\u011fer izlemezsen anan gibi seni de sikeriz, sana etek giydirir kad\u0131n yapar\u0131z, orospu yapar\u0131z, anlad\u0131n m\u0131 orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu?\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
\u201cBiz adam\u0131 madam yapar\u0131z ulan!\u201d diye adeta k\u00fckredi Abuzer de bana bakarak.<\/p>\n
Bu anda annem de a\u011fz\u0131ndaki yara\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131, korku ve utan\u00e7la k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre bakt\u0131 bana\u2026 Annemin yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kartmas\u0131 Abuzer’in ho\u015funa gitmedi. \u00c7enesini s\u0131k\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen devam et s\u00fcrt\u00fck!\u201d dedi \u00f6fkeyle. Annem ses \u00e7\u0131kartmadan kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam ederken Abuzer de ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki eliyle \u00fcstten s\u0131k\u0131ca tutmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk ba\u015fta inik olan yara\u011f\u0131 annemin emmeleri ile kalkmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annem \u015fimdi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ileri geri oynatarak yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 emerken sa\u011f eliyle de s\u0131vazl\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131 halde dizlerinin \u00fczerinde ileri geri sallan\u0131yordu ara s\u0131ra\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131 k\u0131sa s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde bir roket gibi havaya dikilmi\u015f ve annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 doldurmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kafas\u0131n\u0131n annemin ince beyaz yanaklar\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fi\u015fkinli\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
Annem yine g\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131, bazen sa\u011f bazen de sol eliyle yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazl\u0131yor ileri geri oynatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131 ile a\u011fz\u0131na almaya devam ediyordu. Ara s\u0131ra g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131p a\u011fz\u0131na gelen s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131 parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucu ile temizliyordu. Sonra da kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam ediyordu. Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131ndan akan zevk s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131yd\u0131 bunlar.<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcre\u011fim \u00e7aresizce g\u00fcm g\u00fcm diye at\u0131yor, kar\u015f\u0131mda ya\u015fananlar\u0131 bir sinema filmi izler gibi izliyordum. Abuzer annemin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ca tutmu\u015f \u015fimdi kendisi yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda ileri geri oynat\u0131yordu. Annemin g\u00f6zlerinden akan ya\u015flara dudaklar\u0131ndan ve \u00e7enesinden akan salyalar, t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fckler kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u00d6\u011f\u00fcr\u00fcr gibi sesler \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (1), resim \u21163
\nBu ara annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6b\u00fcr tarafa \u00e7evirmek istedi\u011finde Abuzer yara\u011f\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda oldu\u011fu halde annemin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutup bana \u00e7evirdi. O an annemle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldik. Annemin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 utanc\u0131 hi\u00e7bir kelime anlatamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Benim de ondan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kal\u0131r yan\u0131m yoktu. Abuzer hem bana hem anneme a\u011f\u0131r k\u00fcf\u00fcrler edip durdu bu anlarda. Dizlerini biraz \u00f6ne k\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ve e\u011filmi\u015fti. Annemin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 benden yana \u00e7evirmi\u015f s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 tutuyor, onun hareket etmesine engel oluyordu. Annem bo\u015ftaki ellerini havada sall\u0131yor, zaman zaman Abuzer’in kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 tutuyor ama \u00e7o\u011funlukla kendini kaybetmi\u015f \u015fekilde oraya buraya oynat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer annemi a\u011fz\u0131ndan sikiyordu. Ona sakso \u00e7ektirmiyor, a\u011fz\u0131ndan sikiyordu resmen\u2026 Yara\u011f\u0131 art\u0131k kocaman kal\u0131n bir patl\u0131cana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc ve annemin bo\u011faz\u0131na kadar girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Annem g\u00f6zlerini benden ka\u00e7\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da i\u00e7inde oldu\u011fu durumda bunu yapam\u0131yordu. Ben de Vakkas’\u0131n kafama dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131 silah nedeniyle ne ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011febiliyordum ne de g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kapatabiliyordum. Kar\u015f\u0131ma, anneme bakmaktan ba\u015fka \u00e7arem yoktu.<\/p>\n
Vakkas da benim gibi olan biteni izlerken fermuar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sa\u011f eliyle silah\u0131 tutarken sol eli yara\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Kara kuru, ince uzun bir adam olan Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131 da uzun kara bir patl\u0131can gibiydi. Bir bana bir anneme bak\u0131yor ve pis pis s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Zaman ilerledik\u00e7e Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131na ancak yar\u0131s\u0131na kadar girer olmu\u015ftu. Annemin a\u011fz\u0131 daha fazla a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131, t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fckler, salya ve s\u00fcm\u00fck hepsi birbirine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer adeta bir kad\u0131n\u0131 domaltm\u0131\u015f sikiyormu\u015f gibi sikiyordu annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Kas\u0131klar\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131na \u015fiddetle vuruyordu. \u015ei\u015fmi\u015f ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck birer topa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ta\u015faklar\u0131 sallan\u0131yor, annemin \u00e7enesine \u00e7arp\u0131yordu ara ara\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer’den b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrt\u00fcler, homurtular ve inlemeler gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda hareketleri de \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015f, h\u0131zlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annem art\u0131k nefes almakta bile zorluk \u00e7ekiyordu. Abuzer’in zorla benden yana \u00e7evirdi\u011fi uzun beyaz y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Derken odan\u0131n i\u00e7i Abuzer’in ay\u0131 gibi \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 seslerle \u00e7\u0131nlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndaki yara\u011f\u0131ndan akan koyu beyaz d\u00f6lleri g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7enesine, e\u015farb\u0131na ve pardes\u00fcs\u00fcne ak\u0131yordu d\u00f6ller\u2026<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (1), resim \u21164
\nAbuzer annemin a\u011fz\u0131na bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bo\u015fal\u0131rken de ileri geri hareketlerle yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kartmaya devam etti. Sonunda durdu\u011funda \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan. Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6b\u00fcr tarafa \u00e7evirdi, ellerini a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp \u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. V\u00fccudu sars\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Bu s\u0131rada Vakkas kirli bir el havlusunu anneme uzatt\u0131. Annem havada kapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 havlu ile a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131. Uzun uzun \u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmeye devam ederken kusaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131m ama aksine kusmad\u0131. Abuzer’in a\u011fz\u0131na ak\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6llerini yutmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Kendine geldi\u011finde havlu ile y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc de sildi. A\u011flamas\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti. Dizlerinin \u00fczerindeydi halen. Bana hi\u00e7 bakm\u0131yordu. Abuzer Vakkas’a,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi aslan\u0131m, ge\u00e7 bakal\u0131m s\u0131ra sende!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131ta s\u0131r\u0131ta. Sonra da,<\/p>\n
\u201cBu kar\u0131 yan\u0131yor ha, manyak yan\u0131yor hem de. Kar\u0131 milletinden iyi anlar\u0131m ben, acayip yan\u0131yor. G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcne bakma. Yanmayan kar\u0131 d\u00f6l yutmaz Vakkas, yanmayan kar\u0131 d\u00f6l yutmaz, bu orospu hepsini yuttu!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek. Sonra da surat\u0131ma bir tokat at\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cSenin anan yan\u0131yor lan orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu, baban hi\u00e7 sikmemi\u015f mi bu garibi?\u201d dedi kahkaha atarak\u2026<\/p>\n
Babam \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde 60 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131, annemle aralar\u0131nda yirmi ya\u015f fark vard\u0131, son birka\u00e7 senesinde de yatalakt\u0131. Do\u011fal olarak annem y\u0131llard\u0131r cinsel ili\u015fkiye girmemi\u015f, erkek y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Bir kad\u0131n olarak onun da cinsel ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131 elbette, ama bunun Abuzer taraf\u0131ndan b\u00f6yle dile getirilmesi kan\u0131ma dokundu. Annem i\u00e7in, \u201cYan\u0131yor bu kad\u0131n!\u201d demesi beni \u00e7ok sinirlendirdi. Hatta annemi sikecek olmas\u0131ndan bile \u00e7ok\u2026 Ama sinirlensem de yapabilece\u011fim hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n
Derken Vakkas elindeki silah\u0131 Abuzer’e uzatt\u0131 ve soyunup annemin \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7ti. \u00c7oktan kalk\u0131p sertle\u015fen yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tutarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi bakal\u0131m, s\u0131ra bende!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131tarak\u2026 Annem f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 bir sesle,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7ocu\u011fu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131, Allah a\u015fk\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131n!\u201d dedi\u011finde, Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7\u0131kmayacak ulan!\u201d dedi sinirle. Sonra da annemin kafas\u0131na tokat att\u0131. Annem sesini \u00e7\u0131kartmad\u0131 bu tokattan sonra. G\u00f6zlerinden akan birka\u00e7 damla ya\u015f\u0131 sildi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cDizlerim a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131, \u015fu yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 verin bari!\u201d dedi Vakkas’a.<\/p>\n
Vakkas yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerindeki kirli yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u0131p uzatt\u0131 anneme. Annem bunu dizlerinin alt\u0131na koydu. \u015eimdi Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na alacakt\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
akkas k\u0131rk ya\u015flar\u0131nda, ince, uzun bir adamd\u0131. Siyah k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k sa\u00e7lar\u0131 yer yer beyazlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cezaevine defalarca girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, en son iki ay \u00f6nce tahliye oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. \u00c7\u0131plak v\u00fccudunda birka\u00e7 b\u0131\u00e7ak yaras\u0131 vard\u0131. Karanl\u0131k bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ile insana korku veriyordu. Sert bir sesle,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi bakal\u0131m orospu, ne duruyon!\u201d deyince annem sa\u011f elini uzatt\u0131. Sertle\u015fip kalkm\u0131\u015f yara\u011f\u0131 tuttu ve bu sefer g\u00f6zlerini kapatmadan a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131. Abuzer’e yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi Vakkas’a da sakso \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer bu s\u0131rada bir sigara yakm\u0131\u015f hemen yan\u0131mda i\u00e7iyor ve benim gibi olanlar\u0131 izliyordu. Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ileri geri oynat\u0131yor, Vakkas’\u0131n gittik\u00e7e irile\u015fip kalkan yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na daha \u00e7ok al\u0131yordu. A\u011fz\u0131na al\u0131p emerken bir taraftan da eliyle s\u0131vazl\u0131yordu. Vakkas sol eliyle annemin yana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken sa\u011f eliyle de ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutuyordu.<\/p>\n
Annem dizlerinin alt\u0131na koydu\u011fu yast\u0131k nedeniyle \u015fimdi daha rahatt\u0131. O nedenle yara\u011f\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda uzun s\u00fcreler tutuyor, yal\u0131yor ve emiyordu. Oysa az \u00f6nce Abuzer’e sakso \u00e7ekerken k\u0131sa aral\u0131klarla yap\u0131p ara s\u0131ra dizlerini kald\u0131r\u0131p indirmi\u015fti. Vakkas ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 keyifle inliyor, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 emiyor ve bana bak\u0131p duruyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnan harikaym\u0131\u015f lan!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131tarak. Bense nefretle izliyordum bu sahneyi\u2026 Bu arada Abuzer sigaras\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f ve yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Az \u00f6nce annemin a\u011fz\u0131na bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama yara\u011f\u0131 yeniden sertle\u015fmi\u015fti. Otuzbir \u00e7eker gibi ok\u015fuyordu yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cHakkaten yan\u0131yor bu kad\u0131n, yan\u0131yor resmen!\u201d dedi\u011finde kan beynime s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131. Annem Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015ftahla emmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n
Sa\u011f eli yara\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde gidip geliyor, kal\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan a\u011fz\u0131na girip \u00e7\u0131kan yara\u011f\u0131 somuruyordu. G\u00f6zleri a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, ara s\u0131ra yukar\u0131ya, Vakkas\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131yordu. Vakkas Abuzer gibi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutup y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc bana \u00e7evirtmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p adam\u0131n surat\u0131na bakmamak dururken annemin b\u00f6yle yapmas\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00f6fkeden kudurdum. Yerimde hareketlenince Abuzer surat\u0131ma bir tokat att\u0131,<\/p>\n
\u201cRahat dur ulan pi\u00e7!\u201d dedi sinirle\u2026 Annem Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cVurma o\u011fluma!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, ama kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Vakkas’\u0131n surat\u0131na att\u0131\u011f\u0131 sa\u011flam bir tokatla yere d\u00fc\u015fecek gibi oldu.<\/p>\n
Ancak uzun boylu, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kuvvetli bir kad\u0131nd\u0131. Normalde bir kad\u0131n\u0131 yere serecek tokat annemi sersemletti sadece\u2026 Annem kendine geldikten sonra aya\u011fa kalkmak istedi, ama bu kez de Abuzer’den sert bir tokat yedi. Abuzer yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bana do\u011fru uzatarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cBana bak orospu, ya bizim dedi\u011fimizi yapars\u0131n, ya da o\u011flunu siker kad\u0131n yapar\u0131z. Biz bu zamana kadar \u00e7ok erke\u011fi kad\u0131n yapt\u0131k, seninkini de yapar\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn!\u201d dedi\u011finde annem g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131 kocaman ve<\/p>\n
\u201cYapmay\u0131n, Allah a\u015fk\u0131na yapmay\u0131n, siz nas\u0131l adamlars\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d dedi yalvararak. Sonra da, \u201cTamam, Allah a\u015fk\u0131na b\u0131rak\u0131n o\u011flumu, ben yap\u0131cam, ne isterseniz yap\u0131cam!\u201d dedi a\u011flayarak.<\/p>\n
Vakkas s\u00f6ze kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p, \u201cAl \u015funu a\u011fz\u0131na, adam gibi yala\u2026 Orospular gibi pardon\u2026 Orospular gibi yapacaks\u0131n anlad\u0131n m\u0131? K\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k orospu gibi yalayacaks\u0131n!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131tarak. Annem bu s\u00f6zlere,<\/p>\n
\u201cTamam, tamam, b\u0131rak\u0131n o\u011flumu, yap\u0131cam, rahat b\u0131rak\u0131n onu!\u201d diyerek kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdikten sonra yara\u011f\u0131 tuttu ve dahi bir i\u015ftahla emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi iki eliyle kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131 ve ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 oynatarak a\u011fz\u0131na al\u0131yordu. Vakkas’\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi k\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k orospu gibi yapmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Adam\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yeniden ama daha kuvvetli \u015fekilde somuruyordu.<\/p>\n
Islak ve yo\u011fun saksonun yan\u0131nda \u201cOmmm, \u0131mmmm, ummmm!\u201d sesleri \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu annemden. Vakkas b\u00fcy\u00fck keyif al\u0131yordu, annemin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcstten tutmu\u015ftu, ancak bast\u0131rmas\u0131na gerek kalmadan annem kendisi yap\u0131yordu her \u015feyi\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boydan boya al\u0131yordu a\u011fz\u0131na. Acelesi varm\u0131\u015f gibi hareketlerle sokup \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131yordu durmadan. Ara s\u0131ra da iyice \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f kararm\u0131\u015f, k\u0131ll\u0131 ta\u015faklar\u0131n\u0131 emiyor, onlar\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor, yal\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
K\u0131ll\u0131 kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcyordu. Yara\u011f\u0131 dondurma gibi yal\u0131yor, dilini kafas\u0131nda gezdiriyordu. Yara\u011f\u0131n annemin yanaklar\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hareketli \u015fi\u015fkinlikleri g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u011freniyordum.<\/p>\n
Annem sanki zorla de\u011fil de, bu i\u015ften zevk al\u0131r gibi yap\u0131yordu. Abuzer’in, \u201cYan\u0131yor bu kad\u0131n!\u201d derken hakl\u0131 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum. Anneme kar\u015f\u0131 tiksinti ve nefret duymaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Anne dedi\u011fim kad\u0131n bir orospudan farks\u0131z davran\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (2), resim \u21162
\nVakkas da annemin bu hareketlerinden \u00e7ok keyif alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bana bak\u0131p s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131yor, k\u00fcf\u00fcrler ediyor, annemin ger\u00e7ek bir orospu oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. Annem dizlerinin \u00fczerinde ileri geri gidip geliyordu. O kadar i\u015ftahla yap\u0131yordu ki Vakkas’\u0131n zevk s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 doldurup \u00e7enesinden akarken bundan hi\u00e7 rahats\u0131z olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Vakkas annemin bu i\u015ftahl\u0131 saksosuna bir s\u00fcre sonra bo\u015falarak kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi. Bo\u015fal\u0131rken inliyor, anlams\u0131z sesler \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131yordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fekli garip bir hal alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bo\u015fal\u0131rken bile annemin a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kartmaya devam etti yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
D\u00f6lleri annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7enesine, \u00fcst\u00fcne ak\u0131yordu ama annem sanki s\u00fctl\u00fc kahve i\u00e7er gibi hepsini i\u00e7mi\u015f, hi\u00e7 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yapmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Vakkas tamamen bo\u015fald\u0131ktan sonra kendini geri \u00e7ekip yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem az \u00f6nceki havlu ile a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 ve \u00e7enesindeki d\u00f6lleri sildi. Birka\u00e7 kez \u00f6\u011f\u00fcrd\u00fc ama kusmad\u0131. Abuzer’den sonra Vakkas’\u0131n d\u00f6llerini de yutmu\u015ftu. Bir ka\u00e7 sefer \u00f6ks\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonra da,<\/p>\n
\u201cSu var m\u0131?\u201d diye sordu. Abuzer kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cHalim, ordan su getirin \u00e7abuk!\u201d diye seslendi. Az sonra adam kap\u0131n\u0131n aral\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir pet \u015fi\u015fe suyu uzat\u0131p Abuzer’e verdi. Abuzer yeniden kap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131p suyu anneme uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem suyu al\u0131p birka\u00e7 yudum i\u00e7tikten sonra \u00f6ks\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kendine geldi\u011finde aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Vakkas da Abuzer gibi bo\u015fald\u0131ktan sonra bir sigara yakm\u0131\u015f i\u00e7iyordu. Annem dizlerini tutup,<\/p>\n
\u201cDizlerim a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131 b\u00f6yle!\u201d dedi ve yata\u011fa oturdu. Elindeki \u015fi\u015feden bir iki yudum daha ald\u0131. Bana hi\u00e7 bakmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Vakkas elindeki sigaray\u0131 g\u00f6sterip,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130\u00e7er misin?\u201d diye sordu anneme, ama o ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola sallayarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cHay\u0131r!\u201d dedi. \u0130\u00e7ki ve sigaradan nefret ederdi. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cAblac\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcndekileri \u00e7\u0131kartsana, daha \u00e7ok i\u015fimiz var seninle!\u201d diyerek i\u011fren\u00e7 bir kahkaha att\u0131. Annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flumu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131n d\u0131\u015far\u0131!\u201d deyince, Vakkas annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 sert\u00e7e s\u0131kt\u0131 ve<\/p>\n
\u201cBana bak orospu\u2026 Ben ne dedim sana? O\u011flun burada kalacak. Her \u015feyi g\u00f6recek. Bize yamuk yapmak neymi\u015f g\u00f6recek!\u201d dedi \u00f6fkeyle. Abuzer de,<\/p>\n
\u201cE\u011fer bir daha o\u011flumu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131n dersen, seni de\u011fil o\u011flunu sikeriz, sen de izlersin!\u201d dedi sinirle. Ard\u0131nda da bana d\u00f6n\u00fcp,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130yi ki ananla gelmi\u015fsin, yoksa \u015fimdi onun yerinde sen olurdun, onun yerine senin g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikerdik!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek\u2026<\/p>\n
Vakkas annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 tutuyordu hala\u2026 Onu sert\u00e7e geriye itince annem yata\u011f\u0131n arkas\u0131ndaki duvara k\u00fct diye vurdu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131. \u0130ki eliyle ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutarken,<\/p>\n
\u201cAllah belan\u0131z\u0131 versin hayvan herifler, k\u00f6pek soylar\u0131, yezidler!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p durdu. Ancak Abuzer ve Vakkas hi\u00e7 cevap vermeden \u00f6fkeyle bize bakt\u0131 sadece. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7\u0131kar \u00fcst\u00fcndekileri yoksa ben zorla \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r\u0131m, eve kadar anadan do\u011fma gidersin!\u201d deyince annem aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Titreyen elleriyle ba\u015f\u0131ndaki puantiyeli e\u015farb\u0131n\u0131n i\u011fnelerini \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ve a\u00e7t\u0131. Alt\u0131ndaki siyah uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131na d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc. Ard\u0131ndan lacivert pardes\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn fermuar\u0131n\u0131 tuttu ama indirmeden ince bir s\u00fcre bekledi. Abuzer yeniden,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7\u0131kart lan \u015funu orospu, oyun mu oynuyoruz burada?\u201d deyince fermuar\u0131 indirdi.<\/p>\n
Annemin soyunmamak i\u00e7in bu kadar direnmesinin sebebi fermuar indik\u00e7e ortaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annem pardes\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na hi\u00e7bir \u015fey giymemi\u015fti. Tamamen \u00e7\u0131plakt\u0131.
\nVakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cVay orospu vay, sen haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 gelmi\u015fsin buraya!\u201d dedi\u011finde, Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cAslan\u0131m ben dedim sana bu kar\u0131 yan\u0131yor!\u201d diyerek g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Annem yaz s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda kal\u0131n kuma\u015fl\u0131 pardes\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda pi\u015fmemek i\u00e7in i\u00e7ine k\u00fclot bile giymemi\u015fti. Uzun zamand\u0131r s\u00fcrekli bu pardes\u00fcy\u00fc giymesinin sebebi bunu giydi\u011finde i\u00e7ine bir \u015fey giymesine gerek kalmamas\u0131yd\u0131 demek ki. Oysa ona ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yazl\u0131k ve ince pardes\u00fcs\u00fc vard\u0131, ama son zamanlarda hep bunu giyiyordu.<\/p>\n
Pardes\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, ama \u00e7\u0131kartmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sol eliyle memelerini kapatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p sa\u011f eliyle de am\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcyordu. Ancak Vakkas’\u0131n elini kald\u0131r\u0131p vuracak gibi yapmas\u0131 sonras\u0131 ellerini \u00e7ekti. A\u011flamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fmi\u015f sessizce a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (2), resim \u21163
\nUn gibi beyaz, g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6rmeyen bir v\u00fccudu vard\u0131 annemin. Karn\u0131nda ve bacaklar\u0131nda uzam\u0131\u015f ve al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015f siyah t\u00fcyler bulunuyordu. Bir kavun kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck ve ya\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6re iyi say\u0131labilecek hafif sark\u0131k memelerinin u\u00e7lar\u0131 kabarm\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n
Pardes\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131plak haldeyken meme u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n belli olmamas\u0131 san\u0131r\u0131m kuma\u015f\u0131n kal\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndand\u0131. Hi\u00e7 \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmay\u0131p bebek emzirmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in meme u\u00e7lar\u0131 da b\u00fcy\u00fcmemi\u015fti. Koyu kahverengi ve b\u00fcy\u00fck meme ba\u015flar\u0131 vard\u0131 annemin\u2026<\/p>\n
As\u0131l olay ise alttayd\u0131. Am\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde ve kas\u0131klar\u0131nda k\u0131sa, kal\u0131n ve s\u0131k k\u0131llardan \u00fc\u00e7gen \u015feklinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir orman vard\u0131. Siyah k\u0131llar\u0131 p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l parl\u0131yordu tavandaki \u00e7i\u011f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n
Bembeyaz v\u00fccudu ile tezat olu\u015fturuyordu bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc. K\u0131llar\u0131n aras\u0131nda am\u0131n\u0131n etli ve pembemsi dudaklar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Bol pardes\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na k\u00fclot bile giymemi\u015fti ama bu hi\u00e7 belli olmuyordu. Belki k\u00fclot giyse izi belli olurdu ama annem giymeyerek bunu da engellemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce evde tart\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, 75 kiloydu. \u00c7ok hafif bir g\u00f6bek d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir \u015feyi yoktu. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7\u0131kart \u015funu, hadi!\u201d deyince annem ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fik, bana bakmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 pardes\u00fcy\u00fc ve masan\u0131n \u00fczerine koydu. \u015eimdi \u00fcst\u00fcnde sadece ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, \u00e7orap da giymemi\u015fti. Elleri iki yana sark\u0131k, yata\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde duruyordu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer ve Vakkas annemin bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yaraklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazlamaya ba\u015flarken ben nefret ve \u00f6fkeyle delirmi\u015f gibiydim. Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yapam\u0131yor olmak kahrediyordu beni. Aya\u011fa kalkmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam da nafileydi, plastik c\u0131rt kelep\u00e7elerle ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. G\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar ak\u0131yordu ama hi\u00e7birinin faydas\u0131 olmuyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6ff, yan\u0131yor ulan bu kar\u0131, yan\u0131yor resmen. \u00dc\u00e7 kar\u0131m var ama \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc toplasan bunun yar\u0131s\u0131 etmez!\u201d dedi Abuzer kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken. K\u0131sa s\u00fcre \u00f6nce bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama yarak \u015fimdi eskisinden de g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc \u015fekilde dikle\u015fmi\u015fti. Anneme,<\/p>\n
\u201cDomal bakal\u0131m!\u201d deyince, annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bakt\u0131, a\u011flamas\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti ama yanaklar\u0131 \u0131slakt\u0131. Bu kez Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cDomalsana lan!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, ama annem onu duymam\u0131\u015f gibi yap\u0131nca, \u201cAbi bu kar\u0131 domalmay\u0131 unutmu\u015f sikilmeye sikilmeye!\u201d diyerek g\u00fcld\u00fc. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cBilir bilir bu orospu, her \u015feyi bilir, bir \u015fey unutmaz o!\u201d dedi. Sonra da, \u201cDomal lan!\u201d diye surat\u0131na vuracak gibi oldu. Annem korkuyla geri \u00e7ekildi \u00f6nce, sonra da ellerini yata\u011fa dayayarak domald\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bu s\u0131rada Vakkas beni sandalye ile birlikte yata\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne s\u00fcr\u00fckleyip \u00e7ekti. Annemin v\u00fccudu ile aramda yar\u0131m metre ya var ya yoktu. Bembeyaz t\u00fcys\u00fcz kal\u00e7alar\u0131 ve dolgun g\u00f6t\u00fc tam kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131. Bel \u00e7ukurunda seyrek siyah t\u00fcyler ve k\u0131llar vard\u0131. Abuzer koca elleriyle annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda,<\/p>\n
\u201cBak ulan pi\u00e7, iyice bak!\u201d dedi ve sonra da surat\u0131ma t\u00fck\u00fcrd\u00fc. Annemin g\u00f6t yar\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve bir \u00e7ukura benzeyen hafif t\u00fcyl\u00fc g\u00f6t deli\u011fini bana g\u00f6steriyordu. S\u00fct gibi beyaz kal\u00e7alar\u0131 ve bacaklar\u0131ndaki mavi damarlar\u0131 belli oluyordu.<\/p>\n
Am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 sanki kabarm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Kas\u0131klar\u0131nda da ne zamand\u0131r al\u0131nmayan siyah k\u0131llar\u0131 vard\u0131. Annem temizli\u011fini ihmal etmi\u015fti uzun zamand\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Abuzer sa\u011f elini uzat\u0131p k\u0131ll\u0131 am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda annemin irkildi\u011fini, koca v\u00fccudunun titredi\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Sadece ben de\u011fil onlar da g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u201cAha kar\u0131 oynad\u0131, ho\u015funa gitti!\u201d dedi Vakkas g\u00fclerek.<\/p>\n
\u201cGider orospunun, gider!\u201d dedi Abuzer ve sa\u011f eliyle annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne \u00f6yle sert bir tokat att\u0131 ki, annem yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerine aband\u0131. G\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u011fl\u0131, dolgun yanaklar\u0131 s\u00fctla\u00e7 gibi titremi\u015f, \u00e7\u0131kan \u2018\u015eaapp!\u2019 sesi oday\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annem ac\u0131yla inledi bu tokad\u0131n ard\u0131ndan\u2026<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (2), resim \u21164
\n\u201cBu orospunun her \u015fey ho\u015funa gider!\u201d dedi Abuzer. Annemi belinden tutup yeniden eski haline d\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Annemin g\u00f6t\u00fc k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, Abuzer’in be\u015f parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n izi g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerinde \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer bir s\u00fcre g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131p yo\u011furdu hamur gibi, ufak birka\u00e7 tokat daha att\u0131. Ama sonra dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kerek annemin tam arkas\u0131nda yer alarak birden a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 annemin kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na soktu.<\/p>\n
Siyah ve uzun pos b\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131 annemin k\u0131ll\u0131 am\u0131 ile bulu\u015fmu\u015ftu. \u0130\u015ftahla annemin am\u0131n\u0131 emiyor, am\u0131na paspas \u00e7ekiyordu. Annemse bu durum kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hi\u00e7 tepki vermemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu ama nafile. Hemen yar\u0131m metre \u00f6temdeki annemin v\u00fccudunun titremelerini, kas\u0131lmalar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmemem m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Abuzer koca a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 annemin am\u0131na dayam\u0131\u015f ve bir kuzunun annesinin memesine sald\u0131rmas\u0131 gibi sald\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, annemin am\u0131ndan s\u00fct i\u00e7meye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu sanki. Kal\u0131n parmakl\u0131, iri elleri annemin kal\u00e7alar\u0131nda, g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131nda geziniyordu. Birden bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve kaba sesiyle,<\/p>\n
\u201cYan\u0131yor ulan senin anan, amc\u0131\u011f\u0131 f\u0131r\u0131n gibi!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 tuttu ve beni \u00e7ekip \u00f6ne do\u011fru e\u011ferek annemin am\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc. Annemin am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti, belki Abuzer’in yalamalar\u0131 belki de annemin ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 keyif sonucu kas\u0131klar\u0131nda hafif bir \u0131slakl\u0131k vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7i olduk\u00e7a geni\u015fti. Am dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n karal\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7i k\u0131z\u0131ld\u0131. Bu arada g\u00f6t deli\u011fi de hemen am\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde kara, k\u00f6r bir kuyu gibi duruyordu.
\n\u201cBak ulan orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu, bak!\u201d diyerek ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 daha \u00e7ok e\u011fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Ben dirensem de yapam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Burnumun ucu annemin kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na girdi \u00f6nce, sonra da am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine. Kendimi kurtarmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum ama nafile\u2026 Burnum ve bantl\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131m annemin am\u0131ndayd\u0131. Olduk\u00e7a s\u0131cak, ter ve sidik kokulu am\u0131n\u0131n siyah k\u0131llar\u0131 burnumun ucuna ve \u00e7eneme bat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Bu arada Vakkas da annemi tutmu\u015f, onun kendini \u00e7ekmesine, kalkmas\u0131na engel olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Annemin a\u011flamalar\u0131n\u0131 duyuyordum.<\/p>\n
\u201cB\u0131rak\u0131n bizi, b\u0131rak\u0131n!\u201d diyordu s\u00fcrekli ama hi\u00e7bir faydas\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n
Sonunda Abuzer beni geriye \u00e7ekti. Burnumun ucu \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, annem sars\u0131larak a\u011fl\u0131yor, Vakkas onu omuz ba\u015flar\u0131ndan tutuyordu. Derin derin birka\u00e7 nefes ald\u0131m. Kendime gelmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cG\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu, anan\u0131n am\u0131 yan\u0131yor resmen, pezevenk, anas\u0131n\u0131 satan pezevenk!\u201d diyerek kahkaha att\u0131.<\/p>\n
Sonra da yeniden e\u011fildi ve kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam etti. Annemin kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 emiyor, yal\u0131yordu bir k\u00f6pek gibi\u2026<\/p>\n
Vakkas geriye \u00e7ekildi az sonra ve kalk\u0131k duran yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131 bir s\u00fcre. Hemen ard\u0131ndan da \u00e7evik bir hareketle yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerine \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. S\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 duvara dayayarak yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131na gelecek \u015fekilde tuttu ve<\/p>\n
\u201cYala ulan orospu!\u201d dedi ba\u011f\u0131rarak. Annem tepki verecek gibi oldu\u011funda uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekti k\u00f6k\u00fcnden. Annem ac\u0131yla k\u0131vran\u0131rken Vakkas’\u0131n kalk\u0131k yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi Abuzer annemin am\u0131n\u0131 yalarken, annem de Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yal\u0131yordu. Vakkas annemin sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131, dizlerinden b\u00fckt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iki yana a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131 iyice. Annemin a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem bo\u011fulur gibi oluyordu, yara\u011f\u0131n yanaklar\u0131ndaki \u015fi\u015fkinlikleri belli oluyordu \u00f6nceki gibi. Vakkas bana bakarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cSenin annen tam bir orospuymu\u015f o\u011flum, tam bir orospu!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek.<\/p>\n
Abuzer bu s\u0131rada annemin am\u0131n\u0131 yiyordu resmen. Hafif kokulu, terli ve k\u0131ll\u0131 olmas\u0131na ald\u0131rmadan annemin am\u0131n\u0131 yiyordu. Ancak am\u0131 ile birlikte k\u0131ll\u0131 g\u00f6t deli\u011fine de dil darbeleri atmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6t deli\u011fine dilinin ucunu de\u011fdirdik\u00e7e annemin koca v\u00fccudunun titredi\u011fini, sars\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
Annem a\u011fz\u0131nda Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131, am\u0131nda ve g\u00f6t deli\u011finde Abuzer’in a\u011fz\u0131, ikisinin ortas\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sarkan iri memeleri sallan\u0131yordu durmadan. Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola oynatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm birka\u00e7 kez ama Abuzer o kadar i\u015ftahla am\u0131n\u0131 emiyordu ki buna engel oluyordu.<\/p>\n
Ama sonra zorla da olsa bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iki yana ay\u0131rd\u0131. Abuzer’in a\u011fz\u0131 daha da g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc am\u0131na bu halde. Annemin ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucuna basarak kendini kald\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark ettim. Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola oynat\u0131yordu, kal\u00e7alar\u0131 ve g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u011fl\u0131 etleri kas\u0131l\u0131yordu. Art\u0131k keyif ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok belliydi.<\/p>\n
A\u011fz\u0131nda ise ba\u015fka bir durum vard\u0131. Vakkas g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc ve belini ileri geri oynatt\u0131k\u00e7a yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131yordu. Annem g\u00f6zleri a\u00e7\u0131k ve hi\u00e7 k\u0131rpmadan yara\u011f\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Ellerini pis yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerine dayam\u0131\u015f g\u00fc\u00e7 almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu, zaman zaman ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 geri atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor ama Vakkas’\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndaki elleri nedeniyle bunu yapam\u0131y
\nordu.Bu i\u011fren\u00e7 manzara bir s\u00fcre sonra Abuzer’in kendini geri \u00e7ekmesi ile sona erdi. A\u011fz\u0131 ve b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131 epey \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde annemin k\u0131ll\u0131 am\u0131 ve kas\u0131klar\u0131 da \u00f6yleydi.<\/p>\n
\u201cBen daha fazla duramayacam!\u201d dedi Vakkas’a. Ama Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cTut kendini, derdin ne, b\u00f6yle hazine bulmu\u015fuz hemen sikip g\u00f6nderecek de\u011filiz!\u201d dedi yara\u011f\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131nda oldu\u011fu halde\u2026 Ancak Abuzer Vakkas’\u0131n bu s\u00f6zlerine,<\/p>\n
\u201cBen duramayacam garda\u015f!\u201d diyerek kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi.<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131 kocaman bir patl\u0131can gibi olmu\u015ftu yine\u2026 Kafas\u0131ndan zevk s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131 ak\u0131yordu. Yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kafas\u0131n\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t yar\u0131\u011f\u0131na ve kas\u0131klar\u0131na s\u00fcrtt\u00fc bir s\u00fcre ve ard\u0131ndan da bast\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annem yerinde k\u0131p\u0131rdanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131nca Abuzer belinden s\u0131k\u0131ca kavrad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cK\u0131pra\u015fma ulan orospu, senin de ho\u015funa gidecek!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 sinirle ve beline \u015fiddetli bir yumruk indirdi.<\/p>\n
Annem a\u011fz\u0131 Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131 ile dolu oldu\u011fundan ses edemedi ama \u00e7ok can\u0131 yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131vranmay\u0131, debelenmeyi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Abuzer’in kal\u0131n ve uzun yara\u011f\u0131 am\u0131na girmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Az sonra ta\u015faklar\u0131na kadar girmi\u015fti Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na almakta zorlanan annem am\u0131na hepsini alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 sikmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 annemi. Yara\u011f\u0131 boydan boya girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu am\u0131na\u2026 Annem yarak darbeleri ile sars\u0131l\u0131yor ve \u00f6ne arkaya gidip geliyordu s\u00fcrekli\u2026 Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131 da bu gidip gelmelerle bo\u011faz\u0131na kadar girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Top g\u00fcllesi gibi memeleri sark\u0131k halde sallan\u0131p duruyordu aral\u0131ks\u0131z\u2026 G\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131, kal\u00e7alar\u0131 ve belinin etleri titriyordu.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7 kar\u0131s\u0131 ve on \u00e7ocu\u011fu olan Abuzer, siki\u015f konusunda deneyimli bir erkekti ve bunu konu\u015fturuyordu g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnde\u2026 Yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir h\u0131zl\u0131, bir yava\u015f sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor, annemin am\u0131nda bir s\u00fcre beklerken g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc oynatarak yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7inde \u00e7alkal\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Bu anlarda g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u0131ll\u0131 ve kasl\u0131 yanaklar\u0131 kas\u0131l\u0131yordu. Sonra \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p kafas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t yar\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcrt\u00fcyor, ard\u0131ndan yeniden am\u0131na girip sikmeye devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7erinin nemli ve s\u0131cak havas\u0131 bunalt\u0131c\u0131 bir hal alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Abuzer’in iri yar\u0131 v\u00fccudu ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annemin g\u00fcne\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rmeyen beyaz v\u00fccudu ise tepeden vuran floresan lamban\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u011flanm\u0131\u015f gibi parl\u0131yordu. Vakkas da Abuzer gibi terlemi\u015fti. Bense \u00fczerimde keten pantolon ve ti\u015f\u00f6rtle su i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Abuzer’in pompalamalar\u0131 gittik\u00e7e h\u0131zlan\u0131rken, Vakkas belini y\u0131lan gibi oynatarak yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu annemin a\u011fz\u0131na\u2026 Pis g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerinin aras\u0131nda k\u00fcf\u00fcrler savuruyordu anneme\u2026 Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 tutmu\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 oynatmas\u0131na izin vermiyordu. Annemin g\u00f6zlerinden akan ya\u015flar salyas\u0131 ile birle\u015fip yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne daml\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Ancak bir s\u00fcre sonra Vakkas yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan. O anda annem t\u0131kan\u0131r gibi oldu ama bu hali uzun s\u00fcrmedi. Abuzer bu s\u0131rada var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle pompal\u0131yordu. \u015ei\u015fkin ta\u015faklar\u0131 ve kas\u0131klar\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131na ve kal\u00e7alar\u0131na \u00e7arpt\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131kan \u2018\u015eap \u015fap \u015fap \u015fap!\u2019 sesleri odan\u0131n duvarlar\u0131nda gidip geliyor, yank\u0131lan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Vakkas yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinden inerken Abuzer de annemin am\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kafas\u0131 morarm\u0131\u015f, \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti, \u0131slak ve yap\u0131\u015f yap\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Annemin am\u0131 da epey geni\u015flemi\u015fti ve am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan i\u00e7inin k\u0131z\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer bir s\u00fcre s\u0131vazlad\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131, annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcrt\u00fcp g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131na yara\u011f\u0131yla tokatlar att\u0131. Vakkas ise,<\/p>\n
\u201cBuras\u0131 \u00e7ok s\u0131cak oldu!\u201d diyerek kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, \u201cHalim \u015fu vantilat\u00f6r\u00fc getirin ulan!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Az sonra Halim elinde ayakl\u0131 bir vantilat\u00f6r ile aral\u0131k kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girip ya\u015fanan siki\u015fi izledi bir s\u00fcre\u2026 Halim hem g\u00fcl\u00fcyor hem de olay\u0131n i\u00e7ine dahil olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in Vakkas’a veryans\u0131n ediyordu.<\/p>\n
Halim ve Vakkas ayak\u00fcst\u00fc konu\u015furken Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne soktu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde yerimde sars\u0131ld\u0131m. Annem dizlerinden b\u00fckt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iki yana a\u00e7arak belini e\u011fmi\u015fti. Abuzer sol eliyle beline bast\u0131r\u0131rken sa\u011f eliyle yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tutuyordu.<\/p>\n
Annemin k\u0131ll\u0131 g\u00f6t deli\u011fi yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p geni\u015fliyor, Abuzer’in kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131 da i\u00e7ine giriyordu. Kalbim daha \u015fiddetle atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cAhhhh\u2026 Yapmaa\u2026 \u00c7\u0131kaarr\u2026 Ayy\u2026 Aahh\u2026 \u00c7\u0131karr\u2026 Uhhh\u2026 Iyy!\u201d sesleri ile \u00e7ekti\u011fi ac\u0131y\u0131 g\u00f6sterse de Abuzer’in buna ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etti\u011fi yoktu. Hatta tam aksine gaza geliyor, yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131rd\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6t deli\u011fine daha \u00e7ok giriyordu.<\/p>\n
Sonunda daha derine gidemeyece\u011fini anlayan Abuzer annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcnde ileri geri \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131 am\u0131nda oldu\u011fundan daha yava\u015f \u015fekilde gidip gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcnde. Annem dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 emiyor, \u0131s\u0131r\u0131yordu. Ac\u0131 i\u00e7inde k\u0131vran\u0131yordu. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cBu kar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fc \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131 am\u0131na koyay\u0131m, yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 k\u0131racak!\u201d dedi, bir s\u00fcre sonra da \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcnden\u2026<\/p>\n
Annemin g\u00f6t deli\u011fi epey geni\u015flemi\u015fti, \u015fimdi i\u00e7inin karal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrken deli\u011fin a\u011fz\u0131 kendi kendine daral\u0131p geni\u015fliyordu. Abuzer eline bolca t\u00fck\u00fcrd\u00fckten sonra yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazlad\u0131 ve sonra yeniden g\u00f6t deli\u011fine bast\u0131rd\u0131. Annem yeniden debelenmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama Abuzer s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 tutuyordu onu belinden\u2026 Bu olanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, Halim,<\/p>\n
\u201cBiz ne zaman yapaca\u011f\u0131z abi?\u201d deyince, Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cTamam ulan bizden sonra s\u0131ra sizde, bekleyin biraz!\u201d dedi ve sonra kap\u0131y\u0131 kapad\u0131. Ayakl\u0131 vantilat\u00f6r\u00fcn kablosunu fi\u015fe tak\u0131p \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer annemin g\u00f6t deli\u011fini bir sondaj makinesi gibi deliyor ve geni\u015fletiyordu. Ay\u0131 gibi sesler \u00e7\u0131kartmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine. Annem yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerindeki ellerini sa\u011fa sola at\u0131yor, yata\u011f\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131yor, \u00e7ekiyordu. Az \u00f6nceki ac\u0131 feryatlar\u0131 azalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annemin azalan feryatlar\u0131 ile birlikte Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131s\u0131ndan fazla girip \u00e7\u0131kar olmu\u015ftu g\u00f6t\u00fcne. Abuzer \u015fimdi daha h\u0131zl\u0131 \u015fekilde hareket ediyor, gidip geliy
\nordu.Zevkle inliyor, anneme k\u00fcf\u00fcrler ediyordu.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (3), resim \u21162
\nAnnemin g\u00f6t deli\u011finin a\u011fz\u0131 yarak i\u00e7ine girerken dibe \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyor, \u00e7\u0131karken ise d\u0131\u015fa do\u011fru a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordu. Abuzer’in b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmeleri \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yara\u011f\u0131 annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne son h\u0131z girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Kendini kaybetmi\u015f gibiydi. Pompalam\u0131yor, resmen z\u0131mbal\u0131yordu annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne\u2026 Annemden bu anlarda,<\/p>\n
\u201cIhhh, \u0131hhhh, ayyyy, uhhhh, \u0131mmmm, uffff, offff!\u201d sesleri \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Uzun y\u0131llard\u0131r siki\u015fmeyen, yarak yemeyen annem bu seslerle ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 keyfi d\u0131\u015fa vuruyordu. Sadece am\u0131ndan de\u011fil, g\u00f6t\u00fcnden sikilmek de ona zevk veriyordu.<\/p>\n
Abuzer iki eliyle annemin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 biraz sonra\u2026 Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131 ile yukar\u0131 kald\u0131rmak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131 sollu oynat\u0131p biraz daha a\u00e7maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Sol elini yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde tutarken sa\u011f elini biraz daha \u00fcstte duran karyolan\u0131n demirine att\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 ve bo\u011fuk sesler \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu \u015fimdi. G\u00f6zlerini kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki duvara sabitlemi\u015fti. Annemin bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 duvarda k\u00f6\u015felerinden bantla yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 porno dergisinden y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir resim vard\u0131. Koca yarakl\u0131 iki adam bir kad\u0131n\u0131 aralar\u0131nda tost yapm\u0131\u015flar, sikiyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Zavall\u0131 annem, g\u00f6zleri duvardaki porno resimde sabitlenmi\u015f, ayn\u0131 o kad\u0131n gibi ac\u0131mas\u0131zca sikiliyordu. Abuzer sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 bir jokeyin at\u0131n dizginini tutmas\u0131 gibi tutuyor, \u00e7ekiyor ve var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle sikiyor, sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (3), resim \u21163
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn en derinlerine girip \u00e7\u0131kan yarak annemi yerinde z\u0131plat\u0131yordu. Yere sa\u011flamca bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 40 numara ayaklar\u0131yla bile dengede durmakta zorlan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u0130kili aras\u0131nda olanlara kenardan bakan Vakkas olaya kat\u0131lmaya karar vererek yanlar\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131. Annemin sallanan memelerini tutup s\u0131kt\u0131 bir s\u00fcre\u2026 O anda annemin bu \u015fekilde iki yabanc\u0131 erkek taraf\u0131ndan sikilmekten zevk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steren hareketi geldi.<\/p>\n
Sol eli yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde kalmaya devam ederken karyola demirindeki sa\u011f elini Vakkas’\u0131n halen sert ve dimdik duran yara\u011f\u0131na att\u0131. Yara\u011f\u0131 s\u0131vazlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki duvarda as\u0131l\u0131 porno resimden mi etkilendi acaba, bilmiyorum. Vakkas keyiflendi annemin elinde siki ok\u015fan\u0131nca,<\/p>\n
\u201cUff\u2026 Bu orospu yan\u0131yor aga\u2026 Yarak diye yan\u0131yor bu kar\u0131\u2026!\u201d dedi kahkahayla.<\/p>\n
Abuzer kan ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f ama halen bo\u015falmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Dakikalard\u0131r t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fcyle g\u00f6t\u00fcnden sikiyordu annemi\u2026 Annem ise art\u0131k benim orada oldu\u011fumu unutmu\u015f gibiydi. Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazl\u0131yor, zaman zaman da yoruldu\u011funda elini onun omzuna atarak destek al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Derken Abuzer annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Abuzer yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazlay\u0131p sallad\u0131 bir s\u00fcre. Annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131 ve kas\u0131klar\u0131 k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6t deli\u011finin a\u011fz\u0131 bir liral\u0131k para kadar a\u00e7\u0131k duruyordu. Abuzer annemi belinden kavrad\u0131, annem sa\u011f elini Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n
\u201cGe\u00e7 \u015f\u00f6yle, gel!\u201d diyerek hemen \u00f6n\u00fcmde annemi ayakta domaltt\u0131. Annemin yeniden g\u00f6t\u00fcne girerken Vakkas da yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na almas\u0131 i\u00e7in uzatt\u0131. Annem yara\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7 bir kurt gibi kavrad\u0131 eliyle ve a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131.<\/p>\n
Az sonra Abuzer yeniden annemi g\u00f6t\u00fcnden sikmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eimdi daha h\u0131zl\u0131 ve sert \u015fekilde sikerken, annem de Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deli gibi somuruyordu. Vakkas annemin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekiyor, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 ve belini ok\u015fuyordu. Abuzer’in abanmalar\u0131 ile \u00f6ne do\u011fru at\u0131lan annemi Vakkas yara\u011f\u0131 ile bir duvar gibi durduruyordu. A\u011fz\u0131ndaki siki emerken<\/p>\n
\u201cOhh\u2026 Immm\u2026 M\u0131mmm\u2026\u201d sesleri \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan\u2026 Koca yarak a\u011fz\u0131na boydan boya girmi\u015fti. Yara\u011f\u0131n annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeki hareketlerini yanaklar\u0131ndan g\u00f6rebiliyordum.<\/p>\n
Abuzer var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle pompal\u0131yordu annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne\u2026 \u0130nsan\u00fcst\u00fc bir g\u00fc\u00e7le sikiyordu annemi\u2026 Annemin koca memeleri neredeyse bir ine\u011fin memeleri gibi \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f ve sallan\u0131yordu durmadan\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer art\u0131k kendini kontrol edemez \u015fekilde h\u0131zlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annemin v\u00fccudunun her gram eti ve ya\u011f\u0131 sars\u0131la sars\u0131la oynuyor, l\u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fcyordu. Annemin o yara\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcne boydan boya ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek beni acayip etkilemi\u015fti. Kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131m son raddeye gelmi\u015fti. Boyun damarlar\u0131m \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f, sandalyeden d\u00fc\u015fecek kadar sars\u0131l\u0131r haldeydim.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (3), resim \u21164
\nK\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonunda Abuzer’in surat\u0131n\u0131n \u015fekli de\u011fi\u015fti. Televizyonda izledi\u011fim y\u00fcksek G kuvveti yiyen pilotlar gibi gerilmi\u015f, g\u00f6zleri i\u00e7e g\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Goril gibi sesler e\u015fli\u011finde annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne bo\u015fal\u0131yordu. Tamamen bo\u015falana kadar annemin g\u00f6t\u00fcne aband\u0131, yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7inde tuttu.<\/p>\n
Biraz sonra \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise annemin a\u00e7\u0131k duran g\u00f6t deli\u011finden kirli beyaz s\u0131v\u0131 ak\u0131yordu. Abuzer oyun d\u0131\u015f\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama, annem Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015ftahla emip somurmaya devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n
Ancak Vakkas daha fazla bu \u015fekilde kalmak istemeyince yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekip \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndan\u2026 Sonra da arkas\u0131na ge\u00e7ip Abuzer’in bo\u015flu\u011funu doldurdu hemen, ama g\u00f6t\u00fcne de\u011fil am\u0131na girdi. Tam o s\u0131rada Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cUlan bu ne? Bu orospu \u00e7ocu\u011funun siki kalkm\u0131\u015f!\u201d dedi\u011finde am\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131ca\u2026<\/p>\n
Bakt\u0131klar\u0131 yer pantolonumun \u00f6n\u00fcyd\u00fc. Krem renkli keten pantolonumun \u00f6n\u00fc \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7i\u015fe benzemiyordu bu. \u00d6yle olsa anlard\u0131m, hem bacaklar\u0131mdan da akard\u0131. Bu ba\u015fka bir \u015feydi. \u00dcstelik pantolonumun \u00f6n\u00fc kabarm\u0131\u015f, \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti. Abuzer’in s\u00f6yledi\u011fi buydu.<\/p>\n
Annem do\u011fruldu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc ve sa\u00e7lar\u0131 ter i\u00e7indeydi, adeta suya bat\u0131p \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde, yanaklar\u0131nda ve hi\u00e7 al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015f gibi duran siyah kal\u0131n ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde \u00e7i\u011f damlalar\u0131 gibi ter damlac\u0131klar\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcz\u00fc pancar gibi k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ayr\u0131ca\u2026 Bir elini a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, hayretle bak\u0131yordu bana\u2026 \u0130ki yabanc\u0131 erkek taraf\u0131ndan sikiliyor olmaktan \u00e7ok, o\u011flunun ona baka baka sikinin kalkmas\u0131, bununla kalmay\u0131p bir de bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 onu daha \u00e7ok utand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ve \u00fczm\u00fc\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de bana bak\u0131yorlard\u0131. Islanan \u00f6n\u00fcme, kabar\u0131p sertle\u015ferek pantolonumun \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u00e7ad\u0131r kuran sikime\u2026 Vakkas g\u00fclerek yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tutarken i\u011fren\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015e\u00f6yle ge\u00e7 bakay\u0131m\u2026 O\u011flunun sikini a\u011fz\u0131na al!\u201d dedi\u011finde, annem \u015fa\u015f\u0131rarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cNe? Sen ne diyorsun?\u201d dedi \u00f6fkeyle.<\/p>\n
\u201cDedi\u011fimi yap ulan s\u00fcrt\u00fck!\u201d dedi Vakkas daha da sert bir sesle. Abuzer Vakkas’\u0131n bu teklifini be\u011fenmi\u015fti, annem yeniden itiraz edecek gibi oldu\u011funda \u00f6fkeli bir tokat patlatt\u0131 surat\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem daha fazla direnemeyece\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Vakkas onu sikerken o\u011flunun, daha do\u011frusu \u00fcvey o\u011flunun yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na alacakt\u0131. Ancak isteklerinin bununla s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 olmayaca\u011f\u0131 Abuzer’in devam\u0131nda gelen s\u00f6zleri ile belli oldu.<\/p>\n
\u201cBana bak kad\u0131n\u2026 Sana bir teklifim var. Bu ak\u015fam bizim gibi o\u011flunu da memnun edersen dediklerini yapar\u0131m. Borcunu dolardan T\u00fcrk Liras\u0131’na \u00e7evirir, yeni ve uzun vadeli senetler yapar\u0131m.\u201d Annem aptalla\u015fm\u0131\u015f gibi y\u00fcz\u00fcne bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnlad\u0131n m\u0131? Kabul edersen hemen \u015fimdi haz\u0131rlar\u0131m senetleri. Yok, etmezsen anan\u0131z\u0131 sikerim. Sike sike \u00f6detirim o paray\u0131 size\u2026 Duydun mu beni?\u201d dedi\u011finde annemin y\u00fcz\u00fc renkten renge, \u015fekilden \u015fekle girdi.<\/p>\n
\u201cSen ne diyorsun be? A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131n duyuyor mu?\u201d dedi annem \u00f6fkeyle\u2026 Vakkas elinin ayas\u0131 ile annemin kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n tozuna bir tokat atarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cAs\u0131l sen duyuyor musun, adam sana ne s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor dinlesene. E\u011fer o\u011flun da seni sikerse borcunu yeniden d\u00fczenleyecek!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem sessiz kald\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011ferek yere bakarken Abuzer kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p i\u00e7eriye seslendi,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flum o \u00e7ekmecede benim \u00e7anta var, getirin onu!\u201d diyerek. Az sonra aral\u0131k kap\u0131dan bir el uzan\u0131p \u00e7antay\u0131 Abuzer’e verdi.<\/p>\n
Abuzer \u00e7antay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. Bir tomar imzal\u0131 senet aras\u0131ndan benimkileri ald\u0131. Annemle benim bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z aras\u0131nda y\u0131rt\u0131p yere att\u0131. Sonra da hesap makinesini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p birka\u00e7 i\u015flem yapt\u0131. Makinenin ekran\u0131ndaki say\u0131y\u0131 bize g\u00f6stererek,<\/p>\n
\u201cT\u00fcrk Liras\u0131 ile borcunuz bu oluyor. Bin liras\u0131n\u0131 da ben sildim ayr\u0131ca\u2026 Bunu oniki ayl\u0131k senede b\u00f6l\u00fcyorum!\u201d dedi. Sonra da masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde h\u0131zl\u0131ca oniki senedi yaz\u0131p haz\u0131rlad\u0131. Anneme uzat\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cGel buraya, imzala \u015funlar\u0131!\u201d dedi\u011finde annem bana bakt\u0131. G\u00f6zleriyle bana ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soruyordu. H\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 sallad\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 imzalas\u0131n diye\u2026 Annem bu cevab\u0131m kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi bakt\u0131 \u00f6nce, ama sonra da kalemi al\u0131p senetleri tek tek imzalad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Neye evet dedi\u011fimi biliyordum elbette\u2026 Bu sap\u0131k adamlar\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc yapacak, onlar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde annemi sikecektim. Ama yapacak ba\u015fka bir \u015feyim yoktu maalesef\u2026 Annemin imzalar\u0131 ile en ba\u015fta istedi\u011fimiz olmu\u015f, borcumuz dolardan T\u00fcrk Liras\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Abuzer ve Vakkas \u00f6nemli bir i\u015f ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f olman\u0131n keyfiyle s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131rlarken, Vakkas \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 pantolonunun cebinden sustal\u0131 bir b\u0131\u00e7ak \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ve bununla plastik kelep\u00e7elerimi kesti.<\/p>\n
Ellerim serbest kal\u0131r kalmaz a\u011fz\u0131mdaki band\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcp kalkt\u0131m aya\u011fa. Sonunda \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme kavu\u015fmu\u015ftum. Ancak \u00fcvey annemin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan bundan hi\u00e7 memnun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli oluyordu.<\/p>\n
Sonunda \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme kavu\u015fmu\u015ftum. Ancak \u00fcvey annemin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan bundan hi\u00e7 memnun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli oluyordu.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kendisinin de \u00e7ok iyi bildi\u011fi, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce babam\u0131n bizden yapmam\u0131z\u0131 istedi\u011fi ve ne kadar \u00e7abalasak da unutamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olay \u015fimdi ger\u00e7ek olacakt\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Tabi bu olay\u0131 anlatmazsam bir \u015feyler eksik, havada kalacak, anlatay\u0131m arada\u2026<\/p>\n
Bundan be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce, 22 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m, askerlik yeni bitmi\u015fti. \u0130\u015f bulana kadar bakkalda annemle babama yard\u0131m ediyordum. Milli olmam\u0131\u015f, bir am\u0131n tad\u0131na bakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m hen\u00fcz.<\/p>\n
Elim sikimde geziyordum resmen. Bakkala gelen kom\u015fu kad\u0131nlara ve k\u0131zlara farkl\u0131 g\u00f6zle bakar olmu\u015ftum. Utanga\u00e7 ve i\u00e7ine kapan\u0131k biri oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in arkada\u015flar\u0131m milli olurken ben gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz 31 \u00e7ekiyordum.<\/p>\n
Bu da benim daha \u00e7ok i\u00e7ime kapanmama sebep oluyor ve ruh sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 olumsuz etkiliyordu. Asosyal, eve kapan\u0131p masturbasyon yaparak zevk almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir psikopat olup \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Bunun \u00fczerine annem beni zorla fal, b\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015flerinde isim yapm\u0131\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n evine g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onu k\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in raz\u0131 olmu\u015ftum. Kad\u0131n beni okuyup \u00fcfledi, kur\u015fun d\u00f6kt\u00fc. G\u00fclmemek i\u00e7in kendimi zor tutuyordum.<\/p>\n
Sonras\u0131nda kad\u0131n bir \u015fey demeden beni odadan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Ama i\u00e7eride annemle birka\u00e7 dakika kald\u0131lar. Annem odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnne kad\u0131n ne dedi?\u201d diye sordum birka\u00e7 sefer, ama annem bana cevap vermek yerine sorular\u0131m\u0131 ge\u00e7i\u015ftirdi.<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcnden sonra annemle babam\u0131n aralar\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131lda\u015fmalar\u0131na \u00e7ok\u00e7a \u015fahit oldum. Beni fark ettikleri anda konu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 kesiyorlar, ya da konuyu de\u011fi\u015ftiriyorlard\u0131. Bu halleri bendeki merak\u0131 b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn art\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bir g\u00fcn bakkalda annemin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir zamanda babam d\u00fckkan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 aralay\u0131p,<\/p>\n
\u201cGel o\u011flum, seninle konu\u015facaklar\u0131m var!\u201d deyince merakland\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe oldu baba, hay\u0131rd\u0131r?\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flum art\u0131k b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcn, askerli\u011fini de yapt\u0131n. Bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131n derdin varsa bana anlat, ben senin baban\u0131m!\u201d deyince,<\/p>\n
\u201cYok baba, ne s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131?\u201d dedim kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k olarak. Babam ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fayarak,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flum, bana anlatabilirsin, benden \u00e7ekinme. Burada erkek erke\u011fe konu\u015fuyoruz. Bir ihtiyac\u0131n varsa s\u00f6yle!\u201d dedi bu sefer.<\/p>\n
Babam\u0131n bu \u2018Erkek erke\u011fe konu\u015fuyoruz\u2019 laf\u0131 konunun ne oldu\u011funu az \u00e7ok a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O nedenle utand\u0131m. Babam konuyu hi\u00e7 evirip \u00e7evirmeden,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen hi\u00e7 milli oldun mu o\u011flum? Yani, bir kad\u0131nla beraber oldun mu?\u201d diye sordu\u011fundaysa y\u00fcz\u00fcm k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 oldu. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u2018Yok\u2019 anlam\u0131nda sallad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n
\u201cGe\u00e7en gitti\u011finiz falc\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n dedi\u011fi do\u011fruymu\u015f demek ki\u2026 Bu halin ka\u00e7 zamand\u0131r benim de dikkatimi \u00e7ekiyordu, ama seni \u00fczmemek i\u00e7in ses etmedim. O\u011flum daha \u00f6nce deseydin ya bunu\u2026 Bulurduk bir \u00e7aresini!\u201d dedi\u011finde utanc\u0131mdan yerin dibine girecektim.<\/p>\n
Babam\u0131n daha fazla konu\u015fmas\u0131na izin vermemek i\u00e7in d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m ve o g\u00fcn bakkala d\u00f6nmedim bir daha\u2026 Sonraki birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn boyunca annemle babam\u0131n f\u0131s\u0131lda\u015fmalar\u0131 devam etti.<\/p>\n
Ben ikisinin de y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmaya utan\u0131yordum, ama onlar bana i\u00e7tenlikle yakla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in yemekleri bile odamda tek ba\u015f\u0131ma yiyordum.<\/p>\n
Bir ak\u015fam ge\u00e7 bir saatte babam beni salona \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Annem yoktu. Yan\u0131na oturmam\u0131 istedi. Bana bir erke\u011fin ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 oldu\u011funu, bunlar\u0131n giderilmesi gerekti\u011fini yoksa i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e zarar verece\u011fini dini \u00f6rnekler de vererek anlatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cBu i\u015fin as\u0131l \u00e7aresi senin evlenmendir, ama bizim halimiz meydanda\u2026 Bu paras\u0131zl\u0131kla seni evlendiremeyiz. Bir i\u015f bulup \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsan para biriktirsen, o da ne zamana olur belli de\u011fil. Ama bu i\u015fi evlilik \u00f6ncesinde halletmek gerek\u2026\u201d Merakla dinliyordum babam\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cSeni geneleve g\u00f6ndermek istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim, ama annen buna yana\u015fmad\u0131. Ben o\u011flumun \u00f6yle pis, ahlaks\u0131z yerlere gitmesini istemem dedi\u2026 En sonunda kendi g\u00f6be\u011fimizi kendimiz kesmeye karar verdik. Bu i\u015fi annen halledecek yavrum. Bu fedakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6sterecek\u2026\u201d dedi. Babam\u0131n s\u00f6zleri bitti\u011finde ne demek istedi\u011fini anlad\u0131m tabi ama inanam\u0131yordum,<\/p>\n
\u201cNe diyorsun sen baba?\u201d diyebildim.<\/p>\n
\u201cSenin sorununu annen \u00e7\u00f6zecek evlad\u0131m. \u00dcvey annen\u2026 Seni milli yapacak, rahatlatacak.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYa baba git i\u015fine, deli misin nesin!\u201d dedim tepkiyle ve odama girdim. Ancak babam ciddiydi, pe\u015fimden odama geldi.<\/p>\n
\u201cKad\u0131n halledecek o\u011flum, \u00e7ekinmene gerek yok. Neticede \u00f6z anan de\u011fildir, \u00fcveydir. Kendisi kabul ediyor, ben kabul ediyorum, niye itiraz ediyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYa baba sen hasta m\u0131s\u0131n? Kad\u0131n \u00fcvey de olsa benim annem, b\u00f6yle sa\u00e7mal\u0131k olur mu?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBiz ikimiz bu i\u015fin t\u00fcm vebalini \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze ald\u0131k o\u011flum.. Bunun g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6te tarafta biz verece\u011fiz. Senlik bir \u015fey yok! Kimse bilmeyecek zaten\u2026 Her \u015fey burada kalacak. Hem\u2026\u201d Durdu, bir nefes ald\u0131, sonra devam etti.<\/p>\n
\u201cHem biz zaten \u00fcvey annenle karde\u015f gibiyiz ka\u00e7 zaman\u2026 Kocal\u0131k yapam\u0131yorum kad\u0131na\u2026 Hani demem o ki\u2026 Bence \u00e7ok iyi fikir, her ikiniz i\u00e7in de iyi olur bu\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYa baba senin kafan iyi mi? B\u00f6yle \u015fey olur mu ya, delirdiniz mi siz?\u201d dedim \u00f6fkeyle ve zorla \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m odadan, kap\u0131y\u0131 da kilitledim.<\/p>\n
O gece g\u00f6z\u00fcme uyku girmedi. Nas\u0131l olur da b\u00f6yle bir \u015feyi ak\u0131llar\u0131na getirebildiklerini anlayam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn bakkala gitmedim, odamdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131m. \u00d6fkem ge\u00e7ti\u011finde yeniden bakkala gittim, ama \u00f6zellikle annemin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Bakt\u0131k\u00e7a akl\u0131ma geliyor, y\u00fcz\u00fcm k\u0131zar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u00dcvey annem de ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde davran\u0131yordu bana\u2026 Bir \u00e7ekingenlik, benim yan\u0131mda utanga\u00e7 bir gen\u00e7 k\u0131z gibi k\u0131zar\u0131p bozarmalar\u2026 Ger\u00e7ekten o da istiyor muydu acaba? Babam kocal\u0131k yapam\u0131yormu\u015f kad\u0131na\u2026 Cinsel isteklerini kar\u015f\u0131layam\u0131yormu\u015f. Beni \u00fcvey o\u011flu de\u011fil de bir erkek olarak g\u00f6recek miydi yoksa?<\/p>\n
Geceleri yata\u011f\u0131ma yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ister istemez akl\u0131ma geliyor, kafamda deli sorular d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyordu. Kabul etseydim neler olurdu? \u00dcvey annemle ne yapard\u0131k diye kafamda kurup olmad\u0131k hayaller kuruyordum.<\/p>\n
Cin \u015fi\u015feden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 art\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n
Babam bu konudan bahsetmedi bir daha\u2026 Ancak bu mesele y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 i\u00e7imi kemirip durmu\u015ftu, ta ki \u015fimdiye kadar\u2026<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm bu hat\u0131ralar bir anda g\u00f6z\u00fcmde canland\u0131. Babam\u0131n benim iyili\u011fim i\u00e7in \u00fcvey annemle beraber olmama bile raz\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131, annemin bana ka\u00e7amak bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. Ben bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken Vakkas\u2019\u0131n s\u0131r\u0131tarak bana,<\/p>\n
\u201cSoyun lan g\u00f6t, nerelere dald\u0131n?\u201d demesiyle ger\u00e7ek d\u00fcnyaya d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Abuzer ve Vakkas’\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnde utana s\u0131k\u0131la soyunmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne e\u011fmi\u015fti, san\u0131r\u0131m benim \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rmek istemiyordu. Baks\u0131r\u0131m d\u00f6l i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama hi\u00e7 hissetmemi\u015ftim bunu\u2026<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131m Abuzer’inki kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck olmasa da Vakkas’\u0131nki kadar vard\u0131. \u0130yice \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f, sertle\u015fmi\u015fti. Tamamen \u00e7\u0131plak kald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cVayy\u2026\u201d dedi kalkm\u0131\u015f sikime bakarak\u2026 \u201cSenin yarak da fena de\u011filmi\u015f lan t\u00fcys\u00fcz\u2026 Daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 kar\u0131 siktin mi?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n
Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m heyecan\u0131 hemen anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kurt herif\u2026 Bu soru kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcm daha da k\u0131zard\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu benim i\u00e7in ilk olacakt\u0131. Hayat\u0131mda sikece\u011fim ilk kad\u0131n \u00fcvey annem olacakt\u0131. Annem de cevab\u0131m\u0131 bekliyor gibi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p g\u00f6zlerini bana dikmi\u015fti. Hepsi bana bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ‘Yok\u2019 anlam\u0131nda iki yana sallad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Abuzer ve Vakkas kahkahalara bo\u011fuldu. Annemin k\u0131zaran y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fekli de\u011fi\u015fti. Birazdan \u00fcvey o\u011flunu milli yapacakt\u0131. Abuzer i\u011fren\u00e7 kahkahalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda,<\/p>\n
\u201cUlan kar\u0131, o\u011flunu milli edecen, gurur duy!\u201d dedi. Vakkas,<\/p>\n
\u201cBu ya\u015fa kadar niye beklettin bu o\u011flan\u0131 be annesi\u2026 Verseydin ya daha \u00f6nce!\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131ta s\u0131r\u0131ta\u2026<\/p>\n
Babam\u0131n dedi\u011fini yapsayd\u0131m annem y\u0131llar \u00f6nce bekaretimi bozmu\u015f olacakt\u0131. Bug\u00fcn o g\u00fcnd\u00fc, ama aradan be\u015f y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Belki de bo\u015fu bo\u015funa ge\u00e7mi\u015f, \u00fcvey annemin erkeksiz, benim kad\u0131ns\u0131z ayn\u0131 evde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz bir be\u015f y\u0131l\u2026 Birbirimize sahte ana o\u011ful gibi davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, ger\u00e7ekte i\u00e7imizde kopan f\u0131rt\u0131nalarla ge\u00e7en bir be\u015f y\u0131l\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cUlan g\u00f6t, bak bu ak\u015fam buraya gelmesen bunlar olmayacakt\u0131, milli olamayacakt\u0131n. Demek ki olaca\u011f\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f, hay\u0131rl\u0131 olmu\u015f!\u201d dedi Vakkas\u2026 Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015e\u00fckret lan bize pezevenk, sayemizde erkek olacaks\u0131n!\u201d dedi. Sonra da annemi bana do\u011fru iterek, \u201cHadi bakal\u0131m valide han\u0131m\u2026 Senetleri imzalad\u0131n, \u015fimdi de yapman gerekeni yap!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek\u2026 Vakkas da,<\/p>\n
\u201cDur bakal\u0131m, nas\u0131l olacak bu i\u015f ben de \u00e7ok merak ediyorum!\u201d diyerek s\u0131r\u0131tt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem bana do\u011fru bir iki ad\u0131m att\u0131. Ben oldu\u011fum yerde duruyordum. Kalbim heyecanla at\u0131yordu. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce babam\u0131n yapmam\u0131z\u0131 istedi\u011fi \u015fey \u015fimdi ger\u00e7ek olacakt\u0131, ama yan\u0131m\u0131zda \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak iki yabanc\u0131 adam varken\u2026<\/p>\n
Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m heyecan anneminkinden \u00e7ok daha fazlayd\u0131. Sap\u0131r sap\u0131r titriyordum oldu\u011fum yerde\u2026 Annem alt\u0131na yast\u0131k koydu\u011fu dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 kald\u0131rmadan, biraz \u00e7ekinerek elini halen \u00fczeri d\u00f6llerimle kapl\u0131 erkekli\u011fime att\u0131.<\/p>\n
On ya\u015f\u0131nda s\u00fcnnet oldu\u011fum g\u00fcnden sonra ilk defa eli sikime de\u011fiyordu. O an i\u00e7imden bir elektrik ak\u0131m\u0131 ge\u00e7ti sanki\u2026 Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmadan sertli\u011fini koruyan yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 tutup s\u0131vazlad\u0131, parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla boydan boya ok\u015fad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Sonra da uzan\u0131p sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pt\u00fc, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 aralay\u0131p a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131. O an bay\u0131lacak gibi oldum. D\u00f6llerle kapl\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131m \u00fcvey annemin a\u011fz\u0131ndayd\u0131. Az \u00f6nce Abuzer ve Vakkas’\u0131n oluk oluk d\u00f6llerini yutmu\u015ftu, benimkinden de i\u011frenmiyordu.<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kafas\u0131n\u0131 dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda bir s\u00fcre emdi. Meme emen bir bebek gibi emiyordu. Dayanamad\u0131m, elimi sa\u00e7lar\u0131na att\u0131m. Her zaman arap sabunuyla y\u0131kad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yumu\u015fac\u0131k g\u00fcr sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken annem de gittik\u00e7e kalkan yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na daha \u00e7ok almaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Dili yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kafas\u0131na de\u011fiyordu, daha do\u011frusu a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeki yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kafas\u0131n\u0131 dilliyordu. Annem b\u00f6yle sakso \u00e7ekmeyi nereden \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti? Kendi halinde, dindar, s\u0131radan bir kad\u0131n i\u00e7in bu yapt\u0131klar\u0131 s\u0131ra d\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir durum gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Annemin saksosu gittik\u00e7e h\u0131zlan\u0131p yo\u011funla\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ben de zevke gelmi\u015f, sert\u00e7e sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekiyordum. \u0130ki adam yan\u0131m\u0131zda, pis pis s\u0131r\u0131t\u0131p bize bak\u0131yor, alay ediyor, k\u00fcfrediyordu.<\/p>\n
Onlar\u0131 duymuyordum bile, ald\u0131rm\u0131yordum. Kendimi annemin dilinin, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi zevke kapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ileri geri oynatmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 art\u0131k, ayn\u0131 zamanda sa\u011fa sola \u00e7eviriyordu. Yara\u011f\u0131m son noktas\u0131na gelmi\u015f, \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f, demir gibi sertle\u015fmi\u015fti. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cYeter bu kadar, tamam hadi!\u201d dedi birden\u2026 Zevkimin i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131 orospu \u00e7ocu\u011fu\u2026 Ama yapacak bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n
Annem yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan\u2026 Aya\u011fa kalkarken g\u00f6zlerimiz kesi\u015fti. Y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131 yine\u2026 Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 utan\u00e7 \u00e7ok barizdi, ama mecburduk. \u0130kimizin de ba\u015fka \u015fans\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Abuzer kalk\u0131k yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stererek,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015eimdi de bunu yala bakal\u0131m, daha da sertle\u015ftir \u015funu!\u201d deyince annem e\u011fildi, bu kez dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kmeden ayakta domalarak a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131 yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 \u0130\u015ftahl\u0131 bir saksoya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00d6ne arkaya a\u011f\u0131r hareketlerle yaylanarak Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Sa\u011f eli ile Abuzer’in elini tutmu\u015f, sol elini de kasl\u0131 ve kal\u0131n kal\u00e7as\u0131na dayam\u0131\u015f destek al\u0131yordu, tam \u00f6n\u00fcnde de\u011fil, hafif \u00e7apraz\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Abuzer’in\u2026 “Immm, ommm, ummm!\u201c sesleri \u00e7\u0131kara \u00e7\u0131kara saksoya devam ederken, Vakkas,<\/p>\n
“Hadi lan, ne duruyon, sen de kat\u0131l bize\u2026 \u00d6yle \u00f6k\u00fcz gibi durma!\u201d dedi pis pis g\u00fclerek\u2026 Sonra da, \u201cSen de anan\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131 em!\u201d diye adeta emir verir gibi konu\u015ftu. Annem bu konu\u015fmay\u0131 duymam\u0131\u015f gibi saksoya devam ederken, Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi ge\u00e7!\u201d dedi ba\u015f\u0131yla arkay\u0131 i\u015faret ederek\u2026 Emrini yerine getirdim, annemin arkas\u0131na ge\u00e7tim. Ellerim ilk anda kal\u00e7alar\u0131na de\u011fdi\u011finde bo\u015falacak gibi sars\u0131ld\u0131m. Sonra da p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fcz, dolgun g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 kavrad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Annem arkas\u0131nda oldu\u011fumu biliyordu, ama kendini yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fe kapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na hi\u00e7 tepki g\u00f6stermiyordu. Yava\u015f\u00e7a dizlerimin \u00fczerinde \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm. \u015eimdi annemin sikilmekten kabarm\u0131\u015f ve dudaklar\u0131 ayr\u0131k duran am\u0131 ile geni\u015flemi\u015f g\u00f6t deli\u011fi kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde duran el havlusuna uzand\u0131m ve bununla g\u00f6t deli\u011finin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 sildim. Bu s\u0131rada annem sanki benim daha rahat etmemi istiyormu\u015f gibi yana do\u011fru birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m atarak Abuzer’in \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi.<\/p>\n
Ben de dizlerimin \u00fczerinde sola kayd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda am\u0131 ve g\u00f6t\u00fc tam kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131 yine\u2026 Kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 tutup ok\u015farken annem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p indirerek Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131na kadar sokup \u00e7\u0131kartmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Belden yukar\u0131s\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 kalk\u0131p iniyordu.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 kavrad\u0131m. Annem bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iki yana a\u00e7t\u0131 biraz daha\u2026 Benim ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyordu. Daha rahat ve zevk alabilecek pozisyonu yaratm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hem kendine, hem de bana\u2026<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (4), resim \u21162
\nYava\u015f\u00e7a ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m. Ayr\u0131k duran hafif k\u0131ll\u0131 am\u0131na dilimi de\u011fdirdi\u011fimde i\u011frendim ilk ba\u015fta\u2026 Abuzer annemin am\u0131n\u0131 adeta yerken ben i\u011frenmi\u015ftim. Dilime ve a\u011fz\u0131ma garip, kekremsi bir tat geldi.<\/p>\n
Hayat\u0131mda ilk defa bir kad\u0131n\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131 yal\u0131yordum. Ke\u015fke bu pis izbe yerde de\u011fil de evimizde olsayd\u0131k diye ge\u00e7irdim i\u00e7imden\u2026 Annemin yata\u011f\u0131nda yapsayd\u0131k bu i\u015fi\u2026 Y\u0131kan\u0131p temizlenmi\u015f olsayd\u0131k, misler gibi koksayd\u0131 annemin amc\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Doya doya \u00f6p\u00fcp yalasayd\u0131m tertemiz\u2026<\/p>\n
Fakat her \u015feye ra\u011fmen, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n ve dilimin am\u0131na de\u011fmesinden annemin b\u00fcy\u00fck bir keyif ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6vdesi titredi\u011finde anlad\u0131m. O\u011flunun amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yalamas\u0131ndan zevk al\u0131yordu. Yeniden dilimi uzatt\u0131m ve am\u0131n\u0131 bir dondurma yalar gibi yalad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cNas\u0131l lan ibne? \u00c7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n amc\u0131\u011f\u0131 be\u011fendin mi?\u201d diyerek g\u00fcld\u00fc Vakkas\u2026 Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cYok lan, \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 amc\u0131k bu de\u011fil\u2026\u201d dedi s\u0131r\u0131tarak\u2026 Siki annemin a\u011fz\u0131nda yalan\u0131rken zevk i\u00e7inde sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eki\u015ftirip duruyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00dcvey anas\u0131ym\u0131\u015f bu orospu\u2026 Ama amc\u0131k fena de\u011fil ya\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6re\u2026 \u00c7ocuk do\u011furmam\u0131\u015f, kocas\u0131 da da\u011f\u0131tamam\u0131\u015f pek\u2026 Onun yerine o\u011flan da\u011f\u0131t\u0131r bundan sonra dar amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Tad\u0131na bir var\u0131nca onsuz duramaz pi\u00e7\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem o anda a\u011fz\u0131 yarakla dolu oldu\u011fu halde zevkle inledi. Dilimle ok\u015famalar\u0131m m\u0131 tahrik etti, Abuzer\u2019in konu\u015fmalar\u0131 m\u0131 bilmiyorum. Ama do\u011fru yolda oldu\u011fum belliydi. Dilimi am\u0131na bast\u0131rarak yalad\u0131m bu sefer\u2026 Am\u0131n\u0131n etli, k\u0131zg\u0131n ve kabarm\u0131\u015f d\u0131\u015f dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcrperip titredi\u011fini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, i\u00e7inin yak\u0131c\u0131 s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki elimi kal\u00e7alar\u0131na att\u0131m. T\u00fcys\u00fcz, parlak, dolgun kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 kavrad\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131ca\u2026 Yeniden, bu kez daha da bast\u0131rarak am\u0131n\u0131 boydan boya dilledi\u011fimde annem g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sa\u011fa sola oynatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Dolar yükselince (4), resim \u21163
\nBu s\u0131rada bizi izleyen Vakkas annemin sa\u011f elini al\u0131p yara\u011f\u0131na att\u0131. Annem de onun yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131vazlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131 hemen ard\u0131ndan\u2026 Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc daha da yakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m ve kokuyu almamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken hararetle am\u0131n\u0131 emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Acayip bir \u015feydi bu. Annemin geni\u015f, derin am\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131mla b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015fmi\u015fti. Dilimle, dudaklar\u0131mla am\u0131n\u0131 emiyor, yal\u0131yordum. Am\u0131n\u0131n ve kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n siyah k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k k\u0131llar\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme, dudaklar\u0131ma bat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Ama ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m keyfin yan\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015feydi bu. Sadece ben de\u011fildim zevk alan\u2026 Annem de b\u00fcy\u00fck bir zevk al\u0131yordu. G\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc oynatmas\u0131ndan ve yarakla dolu a\u011fz\u0131na ra\u011fmen \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 iniltilerden zevk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli oluyordu.<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131m sertli\u011finin son noktas\u0131ndayd\u0131 art\u0131k. Biraz \u00f6nce bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama hi\u00e7 hissetmemi\u015ftim. Oysa \u015fimdi t\u00fcm bedenimle, ruhumla hissediyordum bunu\u2026 Yara\u011f\u0131m zonklamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ta\u015faklar\u0131m bir an \u00f6nce annemin am\u0131na girip akmak isteyen d\u00f6llerimle doluydu.<\/p>\n
Kendimi tutmak i\u00e7in \u00e7abal\u0131yordum. Abuzer ve Vakkas gibi deneyimli olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in bunu ne kadar ba\u015farabilece\u011fimi bilmesem de elimden geleni yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Ben annemin am\u0131n\u0131 i\u015ftahla emerken, annem de daha yo\u011fun ve i\u015ftahla somuruyordu Abuzer’in yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Ayn\u0131 anda sa\u011f eliyle de Vakkas’\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 koparacakm\u0131\u015f gibi s\u0131k\u0131yor, yo\u011furuyordu. Vakkas birka\u00e7 kez kafama vurup,<\/p>\n
\u201cAnan yan\u0131yor lan!\u201d deyip durdu. \u201cB\u00f6yle ate\u015fli orospu g\u00f6rmedim ben\u2026 Harika kad\u0131n senin annen\u2026 De\u011fme orospulara ta\u015f \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130lk duydu\u011fumda i\u011frenmeme neden olan bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn maalesef do\u011fru oldu\u011fu ortadayd\u0131. Annem ger\u00e7ekten de yan\u0131yordu\u2026<\/p>\n
Ben annemin kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015ftahla emerken, annem de Abuzer\u2019in aletini daha yo\u011fun ve i\u015ftahla somuruyordu. Ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde sa\u011f eliyle de Vakkas’\u0131n erkeklik organ\u0131n\u0131 koparacakm\u0131\u015f gibi s\u0131k\u0131yor, yo\u011furuyordu. Vakkas bir ka\u00e7 kez kafama vurup,<\/p>\n
\u201cOfff\u2026 Anan yan\u0131yor lan!\u201d deyip durdu.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk duydu\u011fumda i\u011frenmeme neden olan bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn maalesef do\u011fru oldu\u011fu ortadayd\u0131. Annem ger\u00e7ekten de yan\u0131yordu. Bir yandan arkas\u0131ndan yana\u015fm\u0131\u015f annemi yalarken, bir yandan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla onun ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 takip etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
\u015eu odaya girdi\u011fimizde \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc kapal\u0131, kendi halinde bir kad\u0131n olan annemle, en ufak bir s\u00f6zden al\u0131nan, namusu i\u00e7in \u00f6fkelenen sald\u0131ran annemle, \u015fu \u00f6n\u00fcmde domalm\u0131\u015f kendini bana yalatan kad\u0131n ayn\u0131 kad\u0131n de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
Adeta i\u00e7ine \u015feytan ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f gibiydi annem\u2026 K\u0131sac\u0131k bir zaman i\u00e7erisinde zavall\u0131 annemin ar, namus, haya, edep, utanma gibi duygular\u0131n\u0131 yok etmi\u015fti bu hayvanlar\u2026 \u0130\u00e7indeki orospuyu, erkeksiz kalm\u0131\u015f, tatminsizlikler i\u00e7inde k\u0131vranan kad\u0131n\u0131 meydana \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu pu\u015ftlar\u2026<\/p>\n
Annem bir orospu gibi davran\u0131yor, bu adi heriflere bir fahi\u015fe gibi seks hizmeti veriyordu. Hem de isteyerek, onlarla beraber, onlar\u0131n yapt\u0131klar\u0131ndan zevk alarak\u2026<\/p>\n
Tabi \u00fcvey annemdeki bu de\u011fi\u015fiklik benim i\u00e7in iyi miydi, k\u00f6t\u00fc m\u00fcyd\u00fc bilemiyordum.<\/p>\n
Bir yandan ac\u0131mas\u0131zca, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131layarak sevi\u015fmeye zorlad\u0131klar\u0131, kapal\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131nda hi\u00e7 ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 en adi \u015feyleri ya\u015fatt\u0131klar\u0131, hi\u00e7 tatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zevkleri tatt\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 bu kad\u0131na ac\u0131yordum. Eski hali g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne geldik\u00e7e i\u00e7im ac\u0131yordu. Utan\u0131yordum onun ad\u0131na, kendi ad\u0131ma\u2026<\/p>\n
Fakat di\u011fer yandan da, utanarak s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum fakat, bizi yapmaya zorlad\u0131klar\u0131 \u015feyler i\u00e7in, bu inan\u0131lmaz, ba\u015ftan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131c\u0131, pespaye seks sahnelerinin akt\u00f6rleri oldu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in seviniyordum.<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcne kadar bir kad\u0131nla birlikte olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m hi\u00e7\u2026 D\u00f6nem d\u00f6nem hadsiz hesaps\u0131z mast\u00fcrbasyonlarla kendimi harap ediyordum. Fakat daha sonra da i\u00e7imdeki hayvani arzular yat\u0131\u015f\u0131nca pi\u015fman olup akl\u0131ma bile getirmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum hep\u2026 Gece uykumda \u015feytan aldatmalar\u0131, erotik r\u00fcyalar, sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda k\u00fclotlar\u0131m\u0131n yap\u0131\u015fkan spermler i\u00e7inde kalmalar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00d6zellikle de \u00fcvey annemle kendimi \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak birbirimize girmi\u015f olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm o \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n r\u00fcyalar\u2026Kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda k\u0131vrand\u0131\u011f\u0131, ona zevk verdi\u011fim, ikimizin de kendimizden ge\u00e7ti\u011fimiz pis r\u00fcyalar\u2026<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn ilk kez, ger\u00e7ekten bir kad\u0131nla birlikte olacakt\u0131m. Hem de \u00fcvey annemle\u2026 Annem dedi\u011fim kad\u0131nla\u2026 Tefeci haydutlar\u0131n dayak ve zorlamas\u0131yla, \u00f6l\u00fcm ve silah tehditleriyle ikimizi s\u00fcr\u00fckledikleri ensest bir ili\u015fki ya\u015fayacakt\u0131m. Dakikalarca am\u0131n\u0131 yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, i\u00e7inden akan zevk sular\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 dilinde hissetti\u011fim, dilimden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 zevkle kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 oynat\u0131p duran kad\u0131nla\u2026<\/p>\n
Asl\u0131nda ger\u00e7ek anlamda ensest say\u0131lmazd\u0131 ki bu\u2026 Neticede \u00fcvey annemdi \u00f6n\u00fcmdeki \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak, k\u00f6pek gibi am\u0131n\u0131 yalay\u0131p emdi\u011fim, zevkten k\u0131vranan bu kad\u0131n\u2026 Of\u2026 Hem de nefis, seksi, hayallerimdeki, r\u00fcyalar\u0131mdaki kad\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cYeter ulan bu kadar\u2026\u201d dedi sonunda Abuzer\u2026 Annemin sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 tutarak sikini a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Vakkas da benim sa\u00e7lar\u0131mdan tuttu, hevesle emdi\u011fim annemin amc\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ekip uzakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 beni\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cAm\u0131na kodu\u011fumun orospusu\u2026 Bu kadar istekli yarak yalan\u0131r m\u0131 ulan? \u0130liklerimi bo\u015faltacaks\u0131n nerdeyse isterik kar\u0131\u2026\u201d Vakkas\u2019a g\u00f6z k\u0131rpt\u0131, \u201c\u015eimdi s\u0131ra o\u011flunda\u2026 O\u011flunu mutlu et \u015fimdi bakal\u0131m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem duraklad\u0131. Abuzer\u2019in \u00f6n\u00fcnde duruyordu hala, diz \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f vaziyetteydi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yana \u00e7evirdi, arkas\u0131nda duran bana, o\u011fluna bakmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuyla\u2026 Yandan profilini g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum annemin\u2026 Az \u00f6nce i\u015ftahla yalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kal\u0131n yarak nedeniyle a\u011fz\u0131ndan t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fckler s\u0131z\u0131yor, \u00e7enesine ak\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zleri \u00e7akmak \u00e7akmakt\u0131. Parl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
Elinin tersiyle a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7enesini sildi, temizledi \u015f\u00f6yle bir\u2026 Abuzer\u2019e d\u00f6nd\u00fc, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p yalvaran bak\u0131\u015flarla bakt\u0131,<\/p>\n
\u201cYapma beyim\u2026\u201d diye yalvard\u0131. \u201cBunu yapma bize\u2026 Etmedi\u011finizi b\u0131rakmad\u0131n\u0131z. Bunu yapmay\u0131n. G\u00fcnah\u2026\u201d Abuzer bir kahkaha kopard\u0131. E\u011fildi, annemin \u00e7enesinden tutup ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bana \u00e7evirdi zorla\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cUlan kaltak\u2026 Az \u00f6nce o\u011flun senin amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yalarken kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011firmen ta\u015f\u0131 gibi sall\u0131yordun zevkten\u2026 Baksana\u2026 O\u011flun da yarra\u011f\u0131 dikmi\u015f kule gibi\u2026 Senin am suyunu tatm\u0131\u015f, amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kokusunu alm\u0131\u015f o\u011flun\u2026 Art\u0131k seni sikmeden b\u0131rakmaz, ben sana s\u00f6yleyeyim. Azm\u0131\u015f kudurmu\u015ftan beterdir derler. Senin o\u011flan anas\u0131n\u0131 sikecek, ba\u015fka yolu yok. G\u00fcnahtan korkma, g\u00fcnah\u0131 bizim boynumuza\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cB\u0131rak bu ayaklar\u0131 yavrum\u2026\u201d diyerek elini annemin am\u0131na atan Vakkas da s\u00f6ze kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cSen de o\u011fluna sikileceksin diye bayram yap\u0131yorsun, numara yapma bize\u2026 B\u0131rak da \u00e7ocuk sevinsin. Yavrunu sevindir han\u0131m\u2026 Hayat\u0131n\u0131n ilk amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 siksin o\u011flan\u2026 Bizden sonra da evde devam edersiniz i\u015fte, fena m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n
Bir yandan s\u0131r\u0131tarak pis pis konu\u015fuyor, bir yandan eliyle annemin am\u0131n\u0131 yo\u011furuyordu. Annem iki eliyle Vakkas\u2019\u0131n elini tutmu\u015f, g\u00fcya parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n hareketine engel olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, g\u00f6zlerini kapatm\u0131\u015f, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131r\u0131yor, minik inlemeler ka\u00e7\u0131yordu a\u011fz\u0131ndan\u2026 Yalvar\u0131yordu bir yandan,<\/p>\n
\u201cYapma diyorum\u2026 Yapma\u2026 Ohh\u2026 Lanet olsun\u2026 Yapma\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130kili gruba Abuzer de kat\u0131l\u0131nca ipler iyice koptu annemde\u2026 O da iki eliyle annemin iki memesini tutmu\u015f, m\u0131nc\u0131klamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. S\u0131k\u0131p s\u0131k\u0131p b\u0131rak\u0131yor, kabar\u0131k u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 parmaklar\u0131yla eziyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cYapmay\u0131n\u2026 B\u0131rak\u0131n\u2026\u201d dedi annem, gerilmi\u015f dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan bir inleme koptu sonra\u2026 \u201cOhhh\u2026 Yapmay\u0131nn\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem g\u00f6zleri zevkten kapanm\u0131\u015f, bir eliyle Abuzer\u2019in g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerindeki elini tutuyordu, di\u011feriyle Vakkas\u2019\u0131n amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran elini\u2026 \u0130ki haydut zavall\u0131 anneci\u011fimi olmad\u0131k \u015fekillere sokuyorlar, zorla zevk almas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cKalk bakal\u0131m \u015f\u00f6yle\u2026\u201d dedi Abuzer, annemi kald\u0131r\u0131p somyaya oturttu. \u0130ki baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131rd\u0131. Bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc bu kez,<\/p>\n
\u201cGel bakal\u0131m s\u00fct o\u011flan\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cAnneni sikmenin zaman\u0131 geldi art\u0131k\u2026 Haz\u0131r kald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n yarra\u011f\u0131, anan\u0131 sik bakal\u0131m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilemeden, donup kalm\u0131\u015f gibi hareketsiz, g\u00f6zlerimi annemin bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda simsiyah kas\u0131k t\u00fcylerinin aras\u0131ndan bana g\u00f6z k\u0131rpan \u0131slak amc\u0131\u011fa dikip \u00f6ylece kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi len\u2026\u201d diyerek ense k\u00f6k\u00fcme bir tokat patlatt\u0131 Vakkas\u2026 G\u00f6zlerimde y\u0131ld\u0131zlar u\u00e7u\u015ftu bir an, d\u00fcnyam karard\u0131. Hemen iki ad\u0131mda gidip annemin \u00f6n\u00fcnde diz \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
\u00c7aresizce ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p anneme bakt\u0131m. O da bana bak\u0131yordu. \u0130ri iri a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00fczel g\u00f6zlerindeki anlam\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zemiyordum bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc\u2026 Korku mu? \u015eehvet mi? Benden, olanlardan, olacaklardan dolay\u0131 utan\u00e7 m\u0131? O\u011flunun onun i\u00e7in kalkm\u0131\u015f sikinden alaca\u011f\u0131 zevklerin heyecan dolu beklentisi mi? Be\u015f on saniye bak\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnne.. Ben\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. Annem bo\u011fuk, \u00e7atall\u0131, p\u00fcr\u00fczl\u00fc bir sesle,<\/p>\n
\u201cYap\u2026\u201d diyebildi. \u201cNe istiyorlarsa yap, bitsin bu i\u015fkence\u2026\u201d Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iyice aralad\u0131. Kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 b\u00f6ylece\u2026 Am\u0131na girmem i\u00e7in, onu daha rahat sikebilmem i\u00e7in haz\u0131rd\u0131 annem\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cYakla\u015f s\u00fct o\u011flan\u2026\u201d dedi Abuzer\u2026 \u201cSen de o\u011flunun sikini tut bakal\u0131m yavrum. Acemidir, bilemez \u015fimdi, am\u0131n\u0131n deli\u011fini bulamaz.\u201d diyerek bir kahkaha att\u0131 tekrar\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cHayvanlar\u2026\u201d diyerek t\u0131slad\u0131 annem\u2026 Bir yandan da onun dedi\u011fini yapt\u0131, \u00f6n\u00fcnde, bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda duran sikimi iki eliyle tuttu. \u201cZevk al\u0131yorsunuz de\u011fil mi bunu yaparak?\u201d Vakkas at\u0131ld\u0131 hemen,<\/p>\n
\u201cHem de nas\u0131l zevk al\u0131yoruz bilsen\u2026\u201d dedi. Siki ta\u015f gibiydi \u00f6n\u00fcnde, eliyle tutup s\u0131vazlad\u0131 rahatlatmak istercesine\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi ba\u015fla bakal\u0131m, o\u011flunun yara\u011f\u0131 hele bi am g\u00f6rs\u00fcn. Annesinin am\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131na baks\u0131n bi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem nab\u0131z gibi atan sikimin g\u00f6vdesini parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla tutuyordu. \u0130ncitmekten korkar gibiydi. Yava\u015f\u00e7a kendine do\u011fru \u00e7ekti, ben de ona do\u011fru ilerledim dizlerimin \u00fcst\u00fcnde\u2026 Heyecandan \u00f6lecek gibiydim. Abuzer,<\/p>\n
\u201cBak bak bak\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cY\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 oldu herifin\u2026 Hadi o\u011flum, anan\u0131 bekletme\u2026 G\u00f6m \u015fu yarra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anan\u0131n am\u0131na da, o da o\u011flunun tad\u0131 nas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6rs\u00fcn.\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem elindeki sikimi kendine do\u011fru yava\u015f\u00e7a \u00e7ekti, am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131na de\u011fdirdi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Biraz bast\u0131rd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Offf\u2026 Ate\u015f gibiydi, yan\u0131yordu annemin amc\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Islak, nemli, bir volkan kadar s\u0131cak\u2026 G\u00f6zlerimi zevkle kapad\u0131m bir an\u2026 Sonra da tela\u015fla a\u00e7\u0131p bedenlerimizin birle\u015fti\u011fi yere diktim bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131\u2026 Bu an\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmak istemiyordum.<\/p>\n
\u201cBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrt biraz, o\u011flunun siki \u0131slans\u0131n bebe\u011fim\u2026\u201d dedi Abuzer\u2026 Annem dedi\u011fini yapt\u0131, zevk sular\u0131yla \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f am\u0131na s\u00fcrtt\u00fcrd\u00fc sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 A\u015fa\u011f\u0131, yukar\u0131 yapt\u0131. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rarak, dikkatle yap\u0131yordu i\u015fini\u2026<\/p>\n
Offf\u2026 Tamam, zorlan\u0131yorduk bunu yapmaya\u2026 Tehdit ediyorlard\u0131, d\u00f6v\u00fcyorlard\u0131, k\u00fcf\u00fcrler ediyorlard\u0131. \u00c7ok ay\u0131p, \u00e7ok g\u00fcnah, yasak bir \u015feydi yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u2026 Ama\u2026 Ama lanet olsun\u2026 \u00c7ok zevkliydi.<\/p>\n
Sikimin ba\u015f\u0131 annemin \u0131slak am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131ndayd\u0131. S\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yak\u0131yordu sanki ince, hassas tenimi\u2026 Ya g\u00f6vdesini tutan yumu\u015fak parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131? Onlar da ayr\u0131 zevk veriyordu. O parmaklar k\u0131m\u0131ldand\u0131, ok\u015far gibiydi sikimi\u2026<\/p>\n
Of, allah\u0131m\u2026 Annem sikimi ok\u015fuyordu sanki\u2026 Yoksa bana m\u0131 \u00f6yle geliyordu? Ama de\u011fil\u2026 Ok\u015fuyordu, evet\u2026 Parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya kayd\u0131, alt tarafa indi, torbalar\u0131ma de\u011fdi. Y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7arpt\u0131 sanki\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh\u2026\u201d Zevkle inledim. Annem hafif\u00e7e ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bana bakt\u0131. G\u00f6zleri dumanlanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 yar\u0131 aral\u0131kt\u0131, etli, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 dudaklar\u0131 aralanm\u0131\u015f, parl\u0131yordu. Yanaklar\u0131 k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, elma gibi\u2026 Bak\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Lanet olsun\u2026 \u0130kimiz de istiyorduk bunu asl\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cYeter art\u0131k, \u0131sland\u0131 iyice, kayganla\u015ft\u0131. Sok bakal\u0131m yarra\u011f\u0131 s\u00fct o\u011flan\u2026 Anan\u0131n am\u0131na koy yarra\u011f\u0131\u2026 Bak bakal\u0131m, am sikmek nas\u0131l zevkliymi\u015f \u00f6\u011fren sen de\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130kisi de iki yan\u0131m\u0131zda konumlanm\u0131\u015flar, bizi izliyorlard\u0131. S\u0131r\u0131tarak, heyecanla, elleri siklerini s\u0131vazlayarak bize bak\u0131yorlard\u0131 iki i\u011fren\u00e7 sap\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n
Abuzer\u2019in dedi\u011fini yapt\u0131m. Belimi \u00f6ne do\u011fru ittim. Sikimin ba\u015f\u0131 am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan i\u00e7eriye kaymaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annemin parmaklar\u0131 aram\u0131zda s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131 biraz\u2026 Biraz daha ilerledim. Annem elini \u00e7ekti aram\u0131zdan\u2026<\/p>\n
Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131r\u0131yordu, g\u00f6rebiliyordum. O anda her \u015fey silindi adeta, ikimizden ba\u015fkas\u0131 yoktu d\u00fcnyada\u2026 Sadece ikimiz\u2026 Birle\u015fen \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak bedenlerimiz\u2026 \u0130\u00e7ine giren erkekli\u011fim\u2026 Ate\u015f gibi yanan su i\u00e7indeki amc\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Sikimi eldiven gibi saran vajinas\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi haz\u2026<\/p>\n
Biraz daha girdim i\u00e7ine\u2026 Biraz daha\u2026 Santim santim g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fcm annemin k\u0131ll\u0131 amc\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u2026 Sonunda kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z birle\u015fince derin bir nefes ald\u0131m. Zevkle inledim,<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh\u2026 Annemm\u2026\u201d diyerek \u00fczerine kapan\u0131verdim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc annemin boynuna g\u00f6md\u00fcm hu\u015fu i\u00e7inde\u2026<\/p>\n
Annemin i\u00e7ine girmi\u015ftim sonunda\u2026 Dibine kadar hem de\u2026 Sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n derinlerinde bir yerlere de\u011fdi\u011fini, bask\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissedebiliyordum. B\u00f6yle bir zevk olamazd\u0131, harika bir duyguydu, bitiren, yakan bir duygu\u2026 Annem de,<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flumm\u2026\u201d diyerek boynuma sar\u0131ld\u0131 s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131\u2026 \u201cHakan\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ne kadar s\u00fcrd\u00fc bilmiyorum, \u00f6ylece kald\u0131k bir s\u00fcre\u2026 Erkekli\u011fim onun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda eriyor, beni de zevkten eritiyordu adeta\u2026 Ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Annem bana s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131lmasa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp bay\u0131lacak gibiydim.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u0131plak iri memeleri g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde eziliyordu. S\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 birbirimize yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f durumdayd\u0131k. Anne o\u011ful olamazd\u0131k bu andan sonra\u2026 Birbirini isteyen, arzulayan, zevk alan iki insand\u0131k. Bir erkek ve bir kad\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
Sonra, sikimi i\u00e7ine g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm vajinas\u0131n\u0131n istemsizce hareket etti\u011fini, kas\u0131lmalar\u0131n ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim. Boynumu saran kollar\u0131n\u0131n cenderesi, nefes al\u0131p vermeleri biraz daha \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131. S\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fuyordu elleriyle, t\u0131rnaklar\u0131n\u0131n etime batt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyordum.<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flum\u2026 Ben\u2026 Ben\u2026\u201d Kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda bedeni s\u0131tmaya tutulmu\u015f gibi titriyordu. \u201cHakan\u2026 Ooohhhh\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cVakkas? Bu kar\u0131 bo\u015fal\u0131yor lan\u2026 O\u011flunun yarra\u011f\u0131na dayanamad\u0131 baksana\u2026 Daha git gel yapmadan anas\u0131 bo\u015falmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Vay orospu vayy\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe vallah a\u011fam\u2026 Bi de bize yalvar\u0131yordu yapmay\u0131n, etmeyin diye\u2026 O kadar siktik, bizden bu kadar zevk almad\u0131 kar\u0131\u2026 K\u0131skand\u0131m valla\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Adamlar iki yan\u0131m\u0131zda konu\u015fup dururlarken biz annemle birbirimizin i\u00e7inde eriyorduk. Boynuma s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 yap\u0131\u015fan annem kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 indirip kald\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kollar\u0131 boynumda, ba\u015f\u0131 omuzumda dururken, v\u00fccudun alt k\u0131sm\u0131 s\u00fcrekli hareket halindeydi.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnne\u2026 Ahhh\u2026\u201d diyerek ben de harekete ge\u00e7tim. Hi\u00e7 yapmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m \u015fimdiye kadar, bir kad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde gidip gelmemi\u015ftim, o zevkleri hi\u00e7 tatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Lakin bedenim ne yap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ne yapmam gerekti\u011fini biliyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n
Kal\u00e7alar\u0131m refleksle harekete ge\u00e7ti, sikimi annemin am\u0131nda ileri geri hareket ettirmeye, sokup \u00e7\u0131karmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m ben de\u2026 Her sokup \u00e7\u0131karmamda daha bir \u0131slan\u0131yor, daha bir kayganla\u015f\u0131yordu annemin amc\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026 Sikimi her am\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131\u015f\u0131mda alt\u0131m\u0131zdaki pis somyan\u0131n \u00fczerine zevk sular\u0131 daml\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
B\u00fcy\u00fck bir zevkle, \u015fehvet denizinde kaybolmu\u015f annemi pompal\u0131yordum adeta\u2026 O da benden farks\u0131zd\u0131. Ben geri \u00e7ekilip i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kar gibi olunca annemin kal\u00e7alar\u0131 pe\u015fimden geliyordu. O yorulup a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 inince ben \u00fczerine aban\u0131yor, sikimi dibine kadar amc\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
S\u00fcrekli hareket ediyorduk, s\u00fcrekli birbirimizin i\u00e7ine girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, inlemelerimiz, feryatlar\u0131m\u0131z birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Dudaklar\u0131yla benim dudaklar\u0131ma yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131 annem\u2026 Is\u0131r\u0131rcas\u0131na somuruyor, zevk inlemeleri a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde kayboluyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cAhhh\u2026\u201d diye bir feryatla son bir hamle yap\u0131p dibine kadar soktum yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131, \u00f6ylece kalakald\u0131m. Ta\u015faklar\u0131mdan sikime do\u011fru bir hareket hissettim. Biriken d\u00f6llerim annemin am\u0131na p\u00fcsk\u00fcrmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. O da boynuma s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 dolanan kollar\u0131yla istemsizce titriyor, nefes almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cHakan\u2026 O\u011flum\u2026 Ahhh\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu durmadan\u2026 \u0130liklerimin bo\u015fald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, annemin i\u00e7ine akt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Dizlerim titredi. Bacaklar\u0131m v\u00fccudumu ta\u015f\u0131yamaz oldu, kendimi annemin \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131m t\u00fcm a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla\u2026 Orgazm\u0131n bitirici darbesi beni kendimden ge\u00e7irdi. D\u00fcnya bir anda karard\u0131, simsiyah bir perde indi sanki\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00dcvey annemle ikimizin neredeyse ayn\u0131 anda orgazm\u0131n zirvelerine ula\u015fmam\u0131z, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m korkun\u00e7 zevk beni bitirmi\u015f, k\u0131sa bir bayg\u0131nl\u0131k hali ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda yerde, pis zeminde \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak yat\u0131yordum. Abuzer\u2019in annemi \u00f6n\u00fcnde domaltt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, belinden s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tutmu\u015f, arkas\u0131nda sert hareketlerle girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Vakkas da sandalyeye oturmu\u015f, i\u011fren\u00e7 sikini annemin a\u011fz\u0131na vermi\u015f, zevkten kendinden ge\u00e7mi\u015fti adeta\u2026<\/p>\n
Zavall\u0131 annem\u2026 Benimle bo\u015falman\u0131n zevkini ya\u015fayamadan bu pislik adamlar\u0131n sap\u0131k isteklerine boyun e\u011fmek zorunda kal\u0131yordu. Abuzer arkadan vurduk\u00e7a sars\u0131l\u0131yor, iri memeleri s\u00fcrekli hareket halinde ileri geri gidip geliyordu. A\u011fz\u0131ndaki Vakkas\u2019\u0131n siki de ayn\u0131 hareketin i\u00e7inde a\u011fz\u0131na girip \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cAl a\u011fz\u0131na yavrum\u2026 Dibine kadar al\u2026 Ohhh\u2026\u201d diye diye annemin a\u011fz\u0131na sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu sikini Vakkas\u2026 \u0130ki eliyle sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tutmu\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola \u00e7evirmesine, ka\u00e7\u0131rmas\u0131na izin vermiyor, ileri geri annemin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 sikiyordu o da b\u00fcy\u00fck bir zevkle\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cAy\u0131ld\u0131n m\u0131 s\u00fct o\u011flan?\u201d dedi Abuzer annemi sikmeye ara vermeden\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cBak da biraz ders al\u2026 Evde anan\u0131 sikerken laz\u0131m olur o\u011flum\u2026 Siki\u015fmeyi \u00f6\u011fren bizden\u2026 Ba\u015fka kimse yapmaz bu iyili\u011fi sana, haberin olsun\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7ok iyi kalplisin a\u011fam\u2026\u201d dedi yardak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 Vakkas\u2026 \u201cHem borcunu hafiflettin bunlar\u0131n, hem de siki\u015f dersi verdin. Bu orospu da kad\u0131n oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendi sayende\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130kisi de kahkahalarla g\u00fcld\u00fcler yapt\u0131klar\u0131 \u015fakaya\u2026 \u00c7ok komikmi\u015f gibi\u2026 Bir s\u00fcre devam etti bu eziyet\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015flar, p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l parl\u0131yordu tenleri\u2026 Sonunda erkekler \u00f6k\u00fcz gibi b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrerek s\u0131rayla annemin am\u0131na ve a\u011fz\u0131na bo\u015fald\u0131lar. Biri sandalyeye kayk\u0131ld\u0131, di\u011feri somyaya att\u0131 kendini\u2026 Eh, kolay de\u011fil, saatlerdir anam\u0131 sikiyordu herifler\u2026<\/p>\n
Zavall\u0131 annem\u2026 Yorgunluktan, sikilmekten bitap halde, \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131p kald\u0131 oldu\u011fu yerde\u2026 A\u011fz\u0131ndan, bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan d\u00f6ller s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Ki bunlar\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 da o\u011flunun d\u00f6lleriydi.<\/p>\n
Neden sonra kalkt\u0131lar. Giysilerini al\u0131p yava\u015f yava\u015f, kendi aralar\u0131nda konu\u015farak giyindiler. Abuzer kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken bize d\u00f6nd\u00fc,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi, siz de kalk\u0131p giyinin.\u201d dedi. Sesi seks yorgunuydu sanki, biraz yumu\u015fam\u0131\u015f gibiydi. \u201cEvinize gidin. \u0130lk senedin vadesinde sizi bekliyorum. \u00d6deme yapmaya ikiniz beraber geleceksiniz yine\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Durdu, belinden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 koca tabancan\u0131n namlusunu bize do\u011fru \u00e7evirip sesini y\u00fckseltti,<\/p>\n
\u201cUnutmay\u0131n, birilerine bir tek laf edecek olursan\u0131z, ikinizi de gebertiriz. Elimiz kolumuz uzundur bizim\u2026 Kurtulamazs\u0131n\u0131z elimizden\u2026 Hadi Vakkas, biz \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Korkudan buz gibi olmu\u015ftum, titriyordum. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da bekle\u015fen adamlar\u0131na talimatlar ya\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydum. Onlar da i\u00e7eriye girmek, annemi becermek i\u00e7in saatlerdir bekliyorlard\u0131 san\u0131r\u0131m. M\u0131r\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131n ettiler,<\/p>\n
\u201cS\u00f6z verdin bize a\u011fam\u2026\u201d dedi birisi\u2026 \u201cHani biz de sikecektik kar\u0131y\u0131?\u201d Abuzer ba\u011f\u0131rarak azarlad\u0131 herifleri,<\/p>\n
\u201cSiktirin gidin ulan ke\u015fler\u2026 Size mi soraca\u011f\u0131m ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131? Bir amc\u0131k i\u00e7in bana kar\u015f\u0131 m\u0131 geleceksiniz yoksa?\u201d Sesler kesildi bu f\u0131r\u00e7adan sonra\u2026<\/p>\n
Anneme bakt\u0131m. Yorgun, bitkin, yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden bana bak\u0131yordu. Kalk\u0131p \u00fcst\u00fcmden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m giysilerimi toplad\u0131m yerden, h\u0131zl\u0131ca giyindim. Annemin elinden tutup yerden kald\u0131rd\u0131m. Kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak, k\u00fcl\u00e7e gibiydi kad\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
Sandalyeye oturttum. Ayaklar\u0131ndan tutup k\u00fclodunu ge\u00e7irdim \u00f6nce\u2026 Sonra da yava\u015f yava\u015f t\u00fcm giysilerini benim yard\u0131m\u0131mla giydi. Ayakta zor duruyordu. Koluma girdi, kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Abuzer masas\u0131nda d\u00f6ner koltu\u011fa yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bize bak\u0131yordu. Adamlar\u0131 yoktu. F\u0131r\u00e7ay\u0131 at\u0131p g\u00f6ndermi\u015fti herhalde\u2026 Vakkas vard\u0131 sadece\u2026 Eliyle bizi g\u00f6sterdi,<\/p>\n
\u201cArabayla g\u00f6t\u00fcr bunlar\u0131 Vakkas\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cPeri\u015fan oldular baksana\u2026 Ayakta duram\u0131yor kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z sikilmekten bitmi\u015f\u2026 \u015eu k\u0131zlara i\u00e7irdi\u011fin haplardan ver de i\u00e7sin, hamile neyim kalmas\u0131n o\u011flan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Vakkas\u2019\u0131n uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 suyla hap\u0131 i\u00e7irdim anneme\u2026 Sonra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz beraber \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k galeriden\u2026 Vakkas, araban\u0131n arka koltu\u011funa ald\u0131 bizi, hareket ettik. Yol boyunca konu\u015fmad\u0131k hi\u00e7\u2026 Sessizce evimizin \u00f6n\u00fcne kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc bizi\u2026 Apartman\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde indirdi,<\/p>\n
\u201cA\u011fam\u0131n dedi\u011fini unutmay\u0131n ha\u2026 Birine \u00f6tecek olursan\u0131z dilinizi keseriz sizin\u2026\u201d diye s\u0131k\u0131lamay\u0131 ihmal etmedi. Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda nerdeyse \u00fcst\u00fcme y\u0131\u011f\u0131lacak gibi bitkin annemle apartmana girdik, zorla yukar\u0131ya, evimize \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Annemi do\u011fru banyoya g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, \u00fcst\u00fcndeki pis pasakl\u0131 giysileri soydum tekrar, k\u00fcvete soktum. Islanmamak i\u00e7in ben de soyundum. Il\u0131k du\u015fun alt\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak durduk ikimiz de\u2026 D\u00fc\u015fmesin diye sar\u0131lmak zorundayd\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda k\u00fcvetin i\u00e7ine s\u0131cak su doldurup ikimiz beraber uzanmak isterdim ama yata\u011fa yat\u0131p dinlenmeyi daha \u00e7ok istiyordum.<\/p>\n
Biraz kendine gelir gibi olunca annemi g\u00fczelce y\u0131kay\u0131p yap\u0131\u015fkan spermlerden ar\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flad\u0131m bir nebze\u2026 \u015eampuanlarla k\u00f6p\u00fcrte k\u00f6p\u00fcrte her taraf\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131kad\u0131m \u00e7ocuk gibi\u2026 Kendim de onunla beraber temizlendim.<\/p>\n
Sonra da havlulara sar\u0131p sarmalay\u0131p yatak odas\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, yata\u011fa uzatt\u0131m. Ben de yan\u0131na k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131p yatt\u0131m. \u00d6rt\u00fcy\u00fc \u00fczerimize \u00e7ekecek halim bile kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Annem h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cMahvettiler beni Hakan\u2019\u0131m\u2026 Orospu yapt\u0131lar beni\u2026 Siktiler\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cA\u011flama\u2026\u201d diyebildim. Benim de g\u00f6zlerim doldu. \u201cA\u011flama annem\u2026 Sen orospu de\u011filsin. Annemsin benim\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBir ay sonra yine oraya gitmek zorunday\u0131z o\u011flum\u2026 Yine ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri ya\u015fatacaklar bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBir ay var daha annem\u2026 Bir \u00e7are buluruz. \u015eimdiden \u00fczme kendini bir ay sonras\u0131 i\u00e7in\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNe \u00e7aresi bulaca\u011f\u0131z ki\u2026 Ellerinde senetler var, silahlar\u0131 var, g\u00fc\u00e7leri var. Her ay gidip senet \u00f6deyece\u011fiz. Bana her istediklerini yapacaklar o\u011flum\u2026 \u00c7aresiz\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme koydu. Elimi kald\u0131r\u0131p \u0131slak sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7ini \u00e7eke \u00e7eke a\u011flad\u0131 biraz\u2026 Yava\u015f\u00e7a duruldu, sesi kesildi, sonra da ikimiz de bitkin, yorgunluktan sarho\u015f bir vaziyette derin bir uykuya dald\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Dolar Yükselince (6), resim \u21162
\nG\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015f, parlak g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 annemin yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n perdelerinden i\u00e7eriye dolmu\u015ftu. Sabah m\u0131, \u00f6\u011fleden sonra m\u0131 bilemiyordum. Annem yan\u0131mda yat\u0131yordu, g\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Ve ikimiz de \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plakt\u0131k. Banyodan sar\u0131n\u0131p geldi\u011fimiz havlular s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f, iki \u00e7\u0131plak yatakta \u00f6ylece yat\u0131yorduk. Bembeyaz \u00e7\u0131plak teni g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda parl\u0131yordu. Uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri her nefes al\u0131p veri\u015finde inip kalk\u0131yordu. Kahverengi meme u\u00e7lar\u0131 kabarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p bakt\u0131m, o simsiyah k\u0131llar\u0131 uzam\u0131\u015f kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131, sanki t\u00fcm gece iki yabanc\u0131 erkek ve \u00fcvey o\u011flu taraf\u0131ndan hunharca sikilmemi\u015f gibi, uzun beyaz bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda i\u015ftah a\u00e7\u0131c\u0131 bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc veriyordu.<\/p>\n
Annemin \u00e7\u0131plak bedenine bakt\u0131k\u00e7a olan biten her \u015feyi hat\u0131rlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. En \u00f6nemlisi, benim onu nas\u0131l sikti\u011fimi, sikim am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeyken nas\u0131l zevk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ilk defa bir kad\u0131nla, hem de \u00fcvey annemle beraber ilk orgazm anlar\u0131m\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Sikim sertle\u015fti birden istemsizce\u2026 Ta\u015f gibi oldu bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n
Lanet olsun. Doymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bu kad\u0131n\u0131 sikmeye, zevk almaya doyamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Onu istiyordum. Tekrar tekrar sikmek, beni bay\u0131ltan, kendimden ge\u00e7iren o korkun\u00e7 zevkleri defalarca, sonsuzca ya\u015famak istiyordum.<\/p>\n
Benim k\u0131p\u0131rdand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 duyunca annem de g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131. Uyku mahmuru ne oldu\u011funu, nerede oldu\u011funu anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r gibi anlams\u0131zca bakt\u0131 \u00f6nce\u2026 Sonra bana, y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131. Ben de ona b\u00fcy\u00fck bir arzuyla, \u015fehvetle bak\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Bir an bak\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Seks a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 okudu sanki g\u00f6zlerimde, yanaklar\u0131 k\u0131zard\u0131 sanki\u2026 G\u00f6z\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lara kayd\u0131, havaya dikilmi\u015f, ta\u015f gibi olmu\u015f sikimi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u2026 \u0130kimizin de \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak oldu\u011fumuzun ay\u0131rd\u0131na vard\u0131 birden,<\/p>\n
\u201cAyy\u2026\u201d diyerek alt\u0131ndaki nemli banyo havlusunu \u00e7eki\u015ftirdi, \u00fczerini \u00f6rtmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Elini tuttum s\u0131k\u0131ca, \u00f6rt\u00fcnmesine engel oldum. Annemle yan yana, \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak uzanm\u0131\u015f yat\u0131yorduk onun s\u0131cak yata\u011f\u0131nda\u2026 Yanan tenlerimiz birbirine de\u011fiyor, birbirini yak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cL\u00fctfen\u2026 B\u0131rak elimi\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 annem\u2026<\/p>\n
B\u0131rakmad\u0131m. G\u00f6z g\u00f6ze bak\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Onu nas\u0131l istedi\u011fimi, arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, \u015fehveti g\u00f6rd\u00fc g\u00f6zlerimde\u2026 Havluyu tutan elini s\u0131kt\u0131m parmaklar\u0131mla\u2026 Elinden b\u0131rakmak zorunda kald\u0131. O elini di\u011fer eliyle beraber tutup ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde yast\u0131\u011fa bast\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir baca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnden at\u0131p yar\u0131m v\u00fccudumla bast\u0131rd\u0131m \u00fcstten\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cHakan\u2026 Ne yap\u0131yorsun o\u011flum?\u201d dedi huzursuzca, hapsoldu\u011fu alt\u0131mda k\u0131p\u0131rdanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak\u2026 G\u00f6z g\u00f6ze durduk bir an\u2026 Ona duydu\u011fum arzuyla \u00e7atalla\u015fan sesimi ben bile tan\u0131yamad\u0131m,<\/p>\n
\u201cAnnem\u2026\u201d diyebildim. Ta\u015f gibi olmu\u015f, zonklamaya ba\u015flayan erkekli\u011fim onun \u00e7\u0131plak kal\u00e7alar\u0131na bat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cYapma o\u011flum\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. \u201cSen\u2026 Sen onlar gibi de\u011filsin\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDe\u011filim\u2026\u201d dedim. \u201cOnlar gibi de\u011filim. Ama elimde de\u011fil anne\u2026 Seni istiyorum. Ohh\u2026 Hem de \u00e7ok istiyorum. Bilemezsin nas\u0131l istiyorum seni\u2026\u201d Durmadan konu\u015fuyor, dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 dudaklar\u0131nda, boynunda dola\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordum ate\u015f sa\u00e7an nefesimle beraber\u2026 Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa sola \u00e7evirip ka\u00e7\u0131nmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu,<\/p>\n
\u201cD\u00fcn olanlar\u2026 Onlar zorlad\u0131 o\u011flum\u2026 Biz istemedik. Orada kald\u0131 olanlar\u2026 O pis yerde\u2026 B\u0131rak beni hadi\u2026 Yapma\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ellerini biraz daha bast\u0131rd\u0131m yast\u0131\u011fa\u2026 Biraz daha aband\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcne\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla bast\u0131rd\u0131m. Alt\u0131mda k\u0131p\u0131rdayam\u0131yordu art\u0131k, sertle\u015fmi\u015f, onun i\u00e7in kalkm\u0131\u015f sikim aram\u0131zda eziliyor, can\u0131m\u0131 yak\u0131yordu, ald\u0131rmad\u0131m. Ezilmesine ra\u011fmen sikimde onun tenini hissetmek ho\u015fuma gidiyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cBa\u015fta onlar zorlad\u0131, evet\u2026 Silahlar\u0131 vard\u0131, vurdular, tokat att\u0131lar, zorlad\u0131lar anne\u2026 Bize ac\u0131mad\u0131lar hi\u00e7\u2026 Ama sonra\u2026 Sonra olanlar\u2026?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201c\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Cevap vermedi annem\u2026 Ben devam ettim \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fcklerle kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k konu\u015fmaya,<\/p>\n
\u201cHo\u015fumuza gitti anne\u2026 \u0130nkar edemezsin. \u0130kimiz de zevk ald\u0131k. \u00d6yle de\u011fil mi? S\u00f6yle bana\u2026 O pis herifler i\u00e7ine girerken zevk ald\u0131n. \u0130ki erke\u011fin aras\u0131nda kald\u0131n, her yerini ellediler, her deli\u011fine girdi adamlar\u2026 Zevkten inlettiler seni\u2026 Ben girdi\u011fimde de zevk ald\u0131n. Benim ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi\u2026 Beni mutlu ettin annem\u2026 Hayat\u0131m\u0131n en mutlu g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fatt\u0131n bana o pis yerde\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAh o\u011flum\u2026 Elimde de\u011fil ki\u2026 Bilmiyorum. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemiyorum art\u0131k\u2026 D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek istemiyorum. Yoksa \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rmak \u00fczereyim. Ben\u2026 Neyim ben? Neden zevk ald\u0131m bu kadar? O pis herifler koca \u015feyleriyle her yerime girip \u00e7\u0131karken, beni zorla sikerlerken ben neden zevk ald\u0131m? Orospunun tekiyim ben \u00f6yle mi?\u201d \u00d6pt\u00fcm tekrar tekrar\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cAsla\u2026 Asla orospu de\u011filsin sen\u2026 Sak\u0131n b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme annem\u2026\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n
\u201cAma\u2026 Ama yine de, hayat\u0131mda ilk defa kad\u0131n oldu\u011fumu hissettim Hakan\u2026 Adamlar beni ac\u0131mas\u0131zca sikerken\u2026 Sen i\u00e7ime girdi\u011finde\u2026 Bittim ben\u2026 Evet\u2026 Zevk ald\u0131m. Senin g\u00fczel erkekli\u011fin i\u00e7imi doldurdu. Zevk verdi bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nm\u0131yordu alt\u0131mda, ka\u00e7maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yordu dudaklar\u0131mdan\u2026 Kopar\u0131rcas\u0131na etli dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pmeye koyuldum. \u00d6p\u00fcyor, emiyor, somuruyordum dudaklar\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Dilimle yalad\u0131m. \u00dcrperdi\u011fini hissettim alt\u0131mda\u2026 Nefes alabilmek i\u00e7in dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 aralad\u0131, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. O a\u00e7\u0131lan \u00f6p\u00fclesi dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na soktum dilimi, onun dilini ok\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cMmmmm\u2026.\u201d diye ho\u015fnutlukla k\u0131vrand\u0131 bu kez\u2026 Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 kurtar\u0131p \u201cHakann\u2026\u201d dedi isterik bir sesle\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cBiz hep bu an\u0131 bekledik anne\u2026 \u00d6yle de\u011fil mi?\u201d Yava\u015f\u00e7a \u00f6pt\u00fcm yine\u2026 \u201cBabam istedi bunu\u2026 Y\u0131llarca \u00f6nce\u2026 Seninle sevi\u015fmemi\u2026 Seni mutlu etmemi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde yast\u0131\u011fa bast\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ellerini serbest b\u0131rakt\u0131m bu arada\u2026 Boynuma sard\u0131 kollar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 S\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cEvet\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cEvet, baban istedi. Erkeklik g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kaybetti baban, \u00e7ok \u00f6nceden hem de\u2026 Hem senin i\u00e7in, hem de benim mutlu olmam i\u00e7in istedi sevi\u015fmemizi\u2026 Neden istemedin beni pis \u00e7ocuk? S\u00f6yle, neden?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBilseydim b\u00f6yle g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu, \u00f6l\u00fcm gibi zevk alaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bilseydim annem\u2026 Ah, bir bilseydim\u2026 Kabul etmedim ama, sonra deli gibi pi\u015fman oldum. Geceleri seninle sevi\u015ftim hep\u2026 Hayaller kurdum senin i\u00e7in\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYa ben? Ayn\u0131 evin i\u00e7inde seninle beraber ya\u015fad\u0131m ka\u00e7 sene\u2026 Ben erkeksizlikten yanarken, sen dalyan gibi dola\u015ft\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde\u2026 \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 koklad\u0131m senin\u2026 Erkek kokunu ci\u011ferlerime \u00e7ektim senin\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAh, ben de senin kirli k\u00fclotlar\u0131na bo\u015fald\u0131m banyoda annem\u2026 Koklad\u0131m, sikime sard\u0131m, otuzbirler \u00e7ektim, senin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n vard\u0131r diye o k\u00fclotlara y\u00fcz s\u00fcrd\u00fcm hep\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Annem iyice kayd\u0131 alt\u0131ma, bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 aralad\u0131, beni tamamen \u00fczerine \u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n
\u201cSap\u0131k o\u011flum benim\u2026 \u0130kimiz de sap\u0131\u011f\u0131z. Hadi \u00f6yleyse\u2026 Al beni o\u011flum\u2026 \u0130\u00e7ime gir\u2026 Beni kad\u0131n\u0131n yap\u2026 Ohhh\u2026 Zevk ver bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda k\u0131p\u0131rdand\u0131m, yerle\u015ftim iyice\u2026 Ta\u015f kesilmi\u015f sikimi elimle tutup ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 annemin k\u0131llar\u0131 uzam\u0131\u015f, zevkle \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirdim. Sertli\u011fimi am\u0131nda hissedince k\u0131vrand\u0131 alt\u0131mda annem,<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczell\u2026\u201d diye inledi. \u201cHadi\u2026 Devam et\u2026 Durma\u2026 Sok i\u00e7ime\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Bekletmeden devam ettim ben de\u2026 Akan sular\u0131ndan kayganla\u015fm\u0131\u015f amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde ilerledim, yava\u015f\u00e7a dibine kadar indim. Sikim yara yara k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar girdi sonunda\u2026 Onun k\u0131ll\u0131 kas\u0131klar\u0131yla benim kas\u0131klar\u0131m birle\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Ak\u015famki gibi boynuma sar\u0131ld\u0131 yine annem\u2026 Nefesinin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 boynumu yak\u0131yordu. Kulak mememi \u00f6pt\u00fc, dilinin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u00fcylerim \u00fcrperdi.<\/p>\n
\u201cO\u011flumm\u2026\u201d diye inledi kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ine\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh\u2026 Anne\u2026 Bana o\u011flum deme art\u0131k\u2026\u201d diye m\u0131z\u0131ldand\u0131m. \u201cAna o\u011ful de\u011filiz art\u0131k\u2026 Seni sikiyorum ben\u2026 Kad\u0131n\u0131ms\u0131n art\u0131k\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ellerini kal\u00e7alar\u0131ma indirdi, bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 biraz daha aralay\u0131p iyice kendine \u00e7ekti beni\u2026 Sanki m\u00fcmk\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f gibi daha da i\u00e7ine girmemi istercesine\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cAhhh\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczel\u2026 Sikin zevk veriyor\u2026 Ohhh\u2026 Peki ne diyeyim sana? Y\u0131llarca o\u011flum dedim. Sen de anne dedin bana\u2026 Ben seninle sevi\u015fmeyi hayal ederken, geceleri senin yerine kendimi ok\u015farken, sen anne dedin bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNe istersen \u00f6yle de annem\u2026 Nas\u0131l istersen\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Gidip gelmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m annemin am\u0131nda\u2026 O sikimi saran am\u0131n\u0131n alevden s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yine beni benden almaya, zevkten i\u00e7im ge\u00e7meye ba\u015flad\u0131. Titriyordum sokup \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rken, zevkten \u00f6l\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n
Acemilikten olsa gerek, hareketlerimi ayarlayam\u0131yor, senkron tutturam\u0131yordum bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc\u2026 Annemin alt\u0131mda hareket eden kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0131z\u0131na yeti\u015femiyordum.<\/p>\n
Birden s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131 bana, benimle beraber yan d\u00f6nd\u00fc, sonra da alt\u0131na ald\u0131 beni\u2026 \u015eimdi \u00fcstte olan annemdi. Ellerini g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme dayad\u0131. Kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 indirip kald\u0131rmaya, sikimin \u00fcst\u00fcnde yaylanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Annem sikiyordu beni\u2026 O geni\u015f ve diri kal\u00e7alar\u0131yla oturup kalk\u0131yor, sikimin \u00fcst\u00fcnde erotik bir dans ritmi tutturmu\u015f, g\u00f6zleri yar\u0131 kapal\u0131, hu\u015fu i\u00e7inde zevke dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hareket ettik\u00e7e iri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri de bedeniyle beraber inip kalk\u0131yor, \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n gibi sallan\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ellerimi uzat\u0131p iki yaramaz memeyi zaptetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde s\u0131k\u0131p s\u0131k\u0131p b\u0131rak\u0131yor, u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 parmaklar\u0131mla eziyordum. Hem i\u00e7inde gidip gelen sikimden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 zevk, hem memelerini m\u0131nc\u0131klayan ellerim bitirmi\u015fti annemi\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cOhhh\u2026 O\u011flummm\u2026 Harika\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczel\u2026 Oohhh\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ben de onunla beraber y\u00fckselmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. O yeni tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fehvet f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131na ben de kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, savruluyordum. Alttan kal\u00e7alar\u0131m\u0131 indirip kald\u0131r\u0131yor, annemin am\u0131ndan ak\u0131p ta\u015faklar\u0131ma kadar s\u00fcz\u00fclen s\u0131v\u0131larla \u0131slanan kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u015faplama sesleri e\u015fli\u011finde hareketli bir ritm tutturmu\u015f, sona do\u011fru yakla\u015f\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n
\u201cGeliyorum annem\u2026\u201d diye inledim. \u201cGeliyorum\u2026 \u00c7ok zevk al\u0131yorum. Dayanam\u0131yorum anne\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130\u00e7ime bo\u015falma o\u011flum\u2026 Tut kendini\u2026\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 annem, kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p erkekli\u011fimi i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131verdi. Tam k\u0131z\u0131p s\u00f6ylenmek \u00fczereyken bo\u015f b\u0131rakmad\u0131 sikimi, \u00fcst\u00fcme, kas\u0131klar\u0131ma kapan\u0131p a\u011fz\u0131na ald\u0131 beni\u2026<\/p>\n
Ak\u015famki haydutlardan \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi \u015feyi yapmaya, sikimi vakumlayarak emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan tutup a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde sikimi emerken i\u00e7eriden diliyle sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yalamas\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi zevkin girdab\u0131na dald\u0131m ben de\u2026<\/p>\n
Ta\u015faklar\u0131mda biriken b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00f6lleri annemin bo\u011faz\u0131na bo\u015faltmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kas\u0131l\u0131yor, titriyor, kurtulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan anneme ald\u0131rmadan sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan tutmu\u015f, sikimi sonuna kadar bast\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
\u201cMmmm\u2026\u201d diye inleyen annemin bademciklerine kadar dayanan sikimin ba\u015f\u0131 bo\u011faz kaslar\u0131nca s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131p ezilirken ben bo\u015falmaya devam ettim. Bitene kadar da b\u0131rakmad\u0131m. Burun kanatlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p kapan\u0131yordu nefes al\u0131p vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, y\u00fcz\u00fc havas\u0131zl\u0131ktan k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 vaziyette\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cBitirdin beni o\u011flum\u2026\u201d dedi neden sonra, yatakta s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc yatarken\u2026 \u0130kimiz de serilip kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Nefeslerimiz yeni yeni d\u00fczene giriyordu. Elimi uzat\u0131p sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 sevgiyle ok\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cSen de beni bitirdin annem\u2026\u201d dedim g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek\u2026 \u201cMahvettin beni\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Yan do\u011frulup bana bakt\u0131, e\u011filip dudaklar\u0131mdan \u00f6pt\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015eu haplardan biz de alal\u0131m bari\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cYar\u0131da kalmak hi\u00e7 ho\u015fuma gitmedi. Sen ne g\u00fczel bo\u015fald\u0131n, ben sap gibi kald\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sar\u0131l\u0131p kendime \u00e7ektim annemi,<\/p>\n
\u201cMerak etme can\u0131m\u2026 Ben seni yar\u0131da b\u0131rakmam. \u015eimdi tamamlar\u0131m seni\u2026 Haplar gelene kadar dilimle mutlu ederim seni, gel buraya\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Kikirdeyerek kollar\u0131mdan kurtuldu, yata\u011fa s\u0131rt\u00fcst\u00fc uzand\u0131. Bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p elleriyle kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 ikiye ay\u0131rd\u0131. Mutlulukla i\u00e7ini \u00e7ekerek,<\/p>\n
\u201cGel \u00f6yleyse\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cAnneci\u011fini mutlu et\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Babam \u00f6l\u00fcnce \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim \u00fcvey annemle bana oturdu\u011fumuz ev ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir bakkal d\u00fckkan\u0131 miras olarak kald\u0131. Ancak d\u00fckkan uzun …<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1094","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ensest-hikayeler"],"yoast_head":"\n